Living Life

2009-09-06T00:57:00.001+08:00

Wont blog till after prelims.. or O's.
I have nothing to blog about anymore anyway.
So till something interesting pops up or exams are over,
i won't blog anymore.

2009-08-04T21:11:00.003+08:00

Tell me something i don't know.

BOTTLE IT ALL UP.
Put on a smile everyday.
Let loose, laugh.
I don't really wanna talk about it.
:DDDDDDDDD

Soccerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr [:
Play it during PE.
Salim's teaching, he's a pretty good coach.
I dont think im good at it.
Dont think im that horrible either.
Beginner what. And i live with 3 brothers. HEH.
FUNNNNNNNNN!
:DDD

2009-07-29T18:26:00.004+08:00

My new baby. :D
I dont know why, but i love it so so much [:

Heyy.

Got a new phone. :D
I changed my number. If i didn't inform you, and you want the new number, i dont care how, but ask me personally. :D

Anyway, i told Isabelle Q. that i'll post our conversation during biology lesson yesterday. But i slept early. HAHA, so i'll blog it today. We are currently learning about mutation. The change in chromosome number and result in down syndrome and albino's are caused by change in gene structure.. or something. And yesterday, we're learning about artificial selection in terms of breeding cows. Suddenly, i thought of something random and asked Issy.

Safwah: *whispers* Eh, you think got such things as down syndrome cows?
Issy: Cannot lah! You got see albino cows?
Safwah: *sniggers* How you know don't have?
Issy: You got see before meh?

LOL. Don't mind the language, singlish much.
I still think there's a possibility. Heh.

So today, 4S3 has finally made its mark in OPSS. Our handprints are up on the wall along with many others. I feel so proud. Our batch is the first graduating class to leave such a mark. Watch out, bitches. We'll graduate with a BANG. :DD

36 more days to prelims.

Enough said.

2009-07-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

BESTFRIEND.
We're more alike than anybody could ever tell.

FOREVER, BITCH.
But it's a simple fact, i still got your back.

Heyy.

Watched HP6 with Natasha on last saturday.(pictures above) Must say the humour of the movie was awesome. Super disappointing ending. But oh well. They better make the last movie the best. They've just got to justify JK Rowling's awesome last book of Harry Potter. They just have to.

School, alright. Exhausting, but alright. Teachers just have to stop scolding. We're teenagers, we don't respond to scoldings or lectures. We respond to pep talks, the kind with no negative remarks, the kind where we're reminded in the nicest way possible why we're doing this crap this year. We need motivation/encouragements and i really doubt reverse psychology helps anyone at all.

Anyway, this week flew by faster than a jet plane. Suddenly, it's friday again. A week has passed, a week closer to O's. Teachers are finishing our syllabus and soon, it's intense mugging period. I'm confused. I want to get O's out of the way ASAP, but at the same time, i'm not ready yet. I'm not ready(& i don't wannna) to graduate(yet), i'm not ready for O's.
Gosh, this year's just too overwhelming.

I've been awesome, but i can't get this naggy bad feeling of my chest.

2009-07-12T16:33:00.006+08:00

Cause i just always wanna have you
right here by my side.

[KINDA-LONG POST]

^LOL, ASHHY!

^Ashhy's so fetch.

^NurFatihaBteMohdAbdulHamidOonPeterNorman.

^Fi's so pretty.
{If i look tired in any of these pictures, i was.[:}

^Amirah Imran EMO-ing. :P

^Caught slacking. Guilty as charged.

Heyy.

Yesterday, went to the civic library with those people above. Did our work for a while. Then i got bored. (surprise, surprise) Anyway, we camwhore-ed and ate. Then camwhore-ed somemore. Took the bus home. It was fun, in a very retarded way. [:

Today, went out with Reeta. Went to McD for breakfast. Did our work for a while. Then talked. After that we met KOH QING NING in the northpoint library. Saw Wadiah, got to see her quite buff boyfriend. Slacked with Reeta while waiting for QN to finish her FNN. Before we went off, Double dared QN to tell this cute dimple boy that his dimples were cute. We even told her we'll give her $10. She almost did it. But backed off last minute. Loser. :D

Reeta went off and QN came over my house. Okay here's the.. scary part. I cooked her maggi and fried for my brother some nuggets. I THOUGHT i off-ed the switch for the fryer after i used it. But i think i accidently on-ed the switch for the oven instead. I almost burnt down my house. Literally. Cause my 1st brother said the alumnium thingy inside caught fire. O.O
Shit. I better not make such a mistake again mann.

MY 3RD BRO LOST HIS PHONE. And he sweared, "Ah, fuck." outloud. LOL. I know it's not supposed to be funny, but i'm in a in-your-face kinda mood cause he was such an ass to me for the past few days. :DDDDDD

I've said this before and i'll say it again for the last time. I dont wanna care anymore. I mean it this time.

Pfft, not gonna let anything ruin my day. Cause i feel good today. Except for the fact i almost burnt down my house.. *guilty*

SCHOOL TOMORROW! I kinda look forward to it.
Go figure. :D

2009-07-10T18:53:00.002+08:00

Please don't worry about me,
I'm fine.

'Cause those who matter, won't care.

Heyy.

MT Oral Exam is over and done with. I don't wanna talk nor think about it. [:
I don't wanna talk nor think about anything right now. Nothing and no one's worth getting upset over now. I'm too tired to bother nor care. So i'm not gonna do anything about anything.
Whatever will be, will be.

REVISIONS' GONNA START THIS WEEKEND.
I swear. :D

2009-07-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

Heyy.

School's fine. Life's fine.
I'm fine.
I love my family. I love my friends.
They're there when i need them to be, provide me with humor when i'm down, hugs when i need them, companionship when i'm lonely and a shoulder to lean on when life gets too heavy.
And i try to do the same.
What more can one ask for? [:

I don't even know why i'm changing the skin of this piece of crap or even updating it.
Not that anyone reads it anymore, anyway.
Habit, i guess. :/

2009-06-29T17:54:00.005+08:00

Just one those lonely nights,
when i wish i didn't let you go.

Wednesday (24 June)

^ASHHY, the (inner)blonde & beautiful. [:

^She says i'm mean, but loves me anyway. *engine laughs* :D

^I look older in first picture. Mwuahaha.

^ILY, V.

Transformer movie & starbucks. I had an awesome time.
I love them. I really do. [:

EXTRAs;

Natty's (very) belated birthday gift to me.
I love it, it has stuff written inside. [:
Thanks, bestest bestfriend. For everything.
I love you, biatch. Why?
~Cause, we're one and the same.~ *starts singing*
[P.S; I will seek vengeance if 'Vengeance' hurts you. I swear.]

^BABYCOUSIN YUSUF!
Note the hair. It's long, standing and curly. :D
GOSH, he's adorable. I miss him :/

Heyy.

School started.. urgh. What i hate most, is waking up for it. Sigh.
Anyways.. *silence*..
*spaces out*

Um.. great. I forgot what i wanted to say. :/
*back tracks*
Uhh. Okay, forget it. Next time then! :D
P.S; Cute Is What We Aim For rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm officially a fan. [:

You're unbelievable. You really are. Sigh.

2009-06-22T20:48:00.007+08:00

Let's talk about love.

^ Yesterday was happy daddy's day.
It's true, I am daddy's little girl.
Always have been, always will be.
I love you, Ayah. <3

^ Today. Happy birthday, Mama.
I pray to God, you'll always be healthy & happy,
and keep you away from any harm and sadness. Amin.
I love you more than anything in the universe.

Love. Hugs. Peace.

2009-06-10T19:26:00.005+08:00

Happy Fifteenth,

Fatiha <3
"If anybody asks you who [you are]
Just stand up tall, look 'em in the face and say,
'I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest'."
(P.S; I hope, even though you're tired back from camp, you've enjoyed your day. We seriously need to go out, okay? Love ya! [: *hugs*)

Heyy.

Still have a dayful of art tomorrow. Sigh. I'm this close (*holds up a v.small distance between thumb & index finger*) to giving up. You can do it, Safwah! LAST DAY, make it worth your freaking time!

One word to sum up today.
Exhausting.

I miss my Natty bestfriend. I miss those 15(or gonnabe)-year-olds. I miss V. I miss babycousin Yusuf. I miss going swimming almost every weekend. I miss catching movies at AMK Hub. I miss that Fresh Mango Ice. I miss my life.

2009-06-07T15:17:00.004+08:00

No Boundaries - Adam Lambert
(Oh come on, Adam sings it way better than whats-his-face. No offence to whats-his-face's fans)

Ohh
Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want
But how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries (x2)

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries (x3)
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries

Heyy.

Blogging to say i won't be free till this coming weekend . And not officially free till the Wednesday of week 3 of june. Apparently i have 2 extra lessons(or something) in week 3. I have lessons and *shivers* art, starting last week. Been coming home at around 7? Yes, it is very tiring. And will be doing the same thing for next week too. Batik due this coming friday, i'm just half-way done. Great, the joy is overwhelming me.

I've never really noticed how attached i've been to my phone. Very, as i found out recently. It's like, spoilt all of the sudden. Like magic. The buttons are not working. At all. And i feel empty not being able to use it till it's repaired. So um, if you wanna contact me, get my house number from me (somehow) or ask some of my closest friends, okay? Right.

Okay, that's all. I think.
{P.S; TAYLOR LAUTNER LOOKS SO FREAKING HOT IN THE COMING 'NEW MOON' MOVIE! *fangirls*)

2009-06-03T22:32:00.006+08:00

There's nothing else i can say.
Eh eh, Eh eh.

Heyy. Too lazy to type much, nothing to type about.
So let the pictures do the talking.

First things first. (Before it's too late)

SHEREENA<3
Happy 15th, Sweetheart. [:
"Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be"
- FIFTEEN by Taylor Swift
(P.S; Of all the days for you to go overseas. Pfft. Sigh. Well, where ever you are, hope you enjoyed your day. Difficulty in the gift, birthday letter will be given to you ASAP. MEET UP SOON KAY. Juniors.. pfft. *rolls eyes* Heh. Love you! *grins*)

^ Bimbo! Crazy bitch. HAHAHA.
YAHHHHH! Saranghae. [:

^ Baby cousin. Sad-eyes YUSUF. (6months)
He has the saddest eyes that'll get him anything easily. Sucha sweetheart. I just wanna pinch those cheeks! GAHHH. Gosh, he's SO adorable. I MISS HIM! D:

RANDOM:

^ I saw this at Cheers the other day..
For those who gets it, laugh with me.
*laughs hysterically*

2009-05-25T15:42:00.006+08:00

What can i do? Say it's true.
Or everything that matters breaks in two.

Heyy.

Went kfc with Sarah Satellite just now. Been craving for kfc since forever. Had an awesome time. We thought this couple (well, actually we think they're siblings) were indian and found out they were malay. Heh. But we did say they were good looking, for "their kind", which turns out to be our kind. Haha. Don't get it? Nevermind. Hees. Bottom line, SHH's awesome and i love her. <3

Got back MYE results. Not good, not good at all. On a brighter note, there's still time.

Anyways, this year hasn't been a good year for most people i know. Not a good year so far, anyway. What with the economic crisis, exam stress, paranoia about swine flu and whatnots. If i could have anything from God right now, it'll be to keep my family safe & happy, give my friends strength to get through anything and for me, motivation & confidence to do well this year. Amin.

P.S; I'm not in my best moods these days. Just fyi.
XXXX

EXTRAS:
For muslims who hasn't heard this song, hear it.
It's Lupe Fiasco's version of Jesus Walks originally by Kanye West.
He's muslim, just so you know. Bless him.[:

2009-05-18T13:13:00.008+08:00

[RANDOM. HAHA. Talk about the 1990s.
It was my first birthday, i think.]
Sometimes, they make me so mad.
But I love my family unconditionally.
Yes, they made me wear a white puffy dress,
tied my hair in a weird way
and made me wear thick eye-liner against my will. [:

Heyy.

Sigh. I'm bored. Waiting to go out with the Setempekers around 3. Don't even know where we're going, maybe won't feel like going at all. See how it goes. Anyways, MT O's is approaching fast. Woah. Scary. Need to start learning my peribahasa and read more malay books(?). Whatever.

Gonna start on my O's preparation soon. I mean it this time. I will do it... i will. I WILL OKAY. Pfft. Most of the notes are filed up now, so i'm more motivated. :DDD
GO SAFWAH![

*yawns*
I'm so sleepy. I love the weather right now. Rainy. [:

2009-05-17T16:46:00.006+08:00

I've learnt to take,
the good, the bad and breathe.

Lee Seung Gi. <3>

Heyy.

My fellow earthlings, Seung Gi oppa is mine. *giggles*
The blog song is his, i couldn't find his slow songs. Sigh. But this song's so catchy. :DDD
Anyway, got bored with my old skin. And didnt feel like studying yet, so.. yeah, i changed it.Annoyingly green to you? Get over it. Heh. [:

The song below has been making me feel better recently. I never really liked Vanessa Hudgens. But recently, i can't help but envy her good-looks and appreciating some of her songs, and i'm also beginning to accept the fact that she dates Zac Efron(Seung gi oppa is helping me get over it. But don't get me wrong, i still love Zac). Point is, i don't find her as annoying now. Kudos to that [:

Whatever will be - Vanessa Hudgens
(title clickable to hear the song)[:

2009-05-13T13:29:00.006+08:00

How can you be so far away,

when we're under the same sky?

LEE SEUNG GI <333
My korean boyfriend.
Sings and acts. Has a babyface and the cutest smile.
Only 22 years old! Hehe.
Seung Gi oppa, sarang hae. :DDDD
Ahhh, so cute! *fan-girls*

Heyy.

Today is a good day. It's the first time i felt good about a paper. What luck, the ONLY paper i'm confident on passing for mid-year. Sigh.

That's all. [:

2009-05-09T16:11:00.006+08:00

I've been sayin', sayin' that i won't fall this time.
But now i'm walkin', walkin' within enemy lines.

Heyy.

You know, i'm a nice girl. I am. (REALLY!) But if i'm mean to you, you're just being really annoying. No offence. [:

Anyway, I'm gonna fail this week's exam. It's a sure-to-be. Oh well. I'm really gonna mug for next week's. So i hope my results won't look that bad on the result slip, eh? Or my mama will totally flip out and i might never see daylight ever again. Ever. Okay, i am over-reacting. But come on, you all know how mums can be. Sigh.

CRAVINGS: Library study dates. My bestfriends. Hugs. Zoo with anyone. Movies! My life back. Hanging with my friends like old times. Demi Lovato's Don't Forget:Deluxe Edition album. Bubble tea. O's to be over and done with. ZAC EFRON[:

I can't wait for mid-year's last paper. OUTING WITH SETEMPEKERS! To where, i'm not really sure, but it'll be fun anyway![: CAMWHORE okay?! Gosh, i miss going out with them. I mean, sure, i see them everyday. But i haven't been going out with Lina and Sarah since forever. So, girls, you better make it on that day, OKAY? I miss you(s). :DD

Study Hard. Stop Global Warming. Take Care. World Peace. [:

2009-05-03T21:57:00.001+08:00

I seriously need to ~~fucking~~ prioritize my time.

Help me.

2009-05-02T10:42:00.011+08:00

PICTURESXZSZX [:

(from oldest to lastest)

LIBRARY WITH BIMBO QN!
[This was like.. long ago xD]

OUTING WITH BFF NATASHA. [:

LIBRARY DATE WITH JANNAH [:

BUFFET TIME.
[I ate till i could eat no more.]

LEPAK AT MY PLACE [:

WEBCAM SESSION WITH NADDEE. [:

I love these people. <3

2009-04-26T15:55:00.004+08:00

That fire you ignited,
good, bad and undecided.
Burns when I stand beside it,
your light is ultraviolet.

Heyy.

Time has been passing real fast. It's scary. The weather has been really bad. Anyway, I've decided to totally go the library often. It's the only place i can actually do my work without getting distracted by anything. Anyone wanna go, do ask me along. *grins*

I think i'm deleting this blog soon. I've been blogging on this very blog since sec 1. It's been almost four years. It has over 300 posts. Sigh, i'm growing up way too fast.

Oh well.
NEW STUDY BUDDY, NADIAH! :D
NEW AWESOME LIBRARY BUDDY, JANNAH! :D
Cannot talk kay, must study! :DDDD

MYE starts next week. All the best.

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READ:
Dear bestfriends,
(i.e, Natty & Azii)
Thank you for always being there for me.
For all the never-ending support and humor.
I'll be here always if you need me, alright bitches? xD
I love you. :DD

Dear lovely clique,
(SETEMPEKERS!)
Thank you for making my days that much brighter.
It's been a hard year so far, but stay strong.
LOVE YA! :D

Dear close friends,
(you know who you are)
Study hard alright?!
Exams are a bitch, but so's everything else right now.
I'm here for you, yo.
Heh, ilyy. :D

Dear 4S3,
STUDY HARD!
We can totally do this,yo.
I love you, 4S3! (:

2009-04-14T18:21:00.004+08:00

ZAC EFRON
Sigh, dreamy blue eyes, charming smile.. BUFF. :D
Also, talented, has awesome hair and hot. :DDD
He's awesome and I love him! <333
*fan-girl moment*
Can't wait for 17 Again. :D

Seriously, why all the haters?
He's done nothing to you, so back off.

He's hot okay. That's my opinion. And i'm one of his biggest fans. Proud to be one, too.
I'm sorry, what? You think he's gay? Yeah, he's cheery. And he's got an effing girlfriend, so get your facts right. You think he's not hot/ugly? I don't recall asking for your opinion, really. If you're not a fan, it's your problem, not mine. So stop reminding and annoying me if you think he's gay/untalented/ugly. I DON'T CARE, so stop telling me!
It effing pisses me off.

It. Really. Does.

2009-04-12T20:08:00.005+08:00

You make me feel out of my element,
like i'm drifting out to the sea.
Like the tides pulling me in deeper,
making it harder to breathe.

Heyy.

I'll first start off by saying, THANK YOU, ISABELLE KANG for the awesome day. I went out with her today to catch the Confessions Of A Shopaholic. We were 10-15 minutes late? But the show was so freaking hilarious. Like, seriously. After that, walked around this food place thingy and checked our BMI? WE'RE HEALTHY, okay! :D

Sometimes i think i think too much. I worry too much. I care too much. It gets tiring, but i can't seem to stop. It's annoying, really annoying. See, by even thinking about this, proves it. I am thinking too much. :/

Oh, and i need anger management. I have issues, like really. My patience has gone wayyyyyyyyyy down due to constant pressure and stress. So much for my efforts to control my temper for the past few years. I warn everyone(who reads my blog) now, do not annoy me. Like seriously. Don't even think about it. What happens when you do and i lose patience, is not my responsibility.
You have been warned.

Dammit, why now?! DDDD:
I. Hate. Sec. Four. Life. So. Fucking. Much.
Enough said.

2009-04-06T19:41:00.002+08:00

Clock keeps ticking, time's running out.
Where we're heading, there is no heading back.

Heyy.

April's here. It's the 4th month of the year. Fast how time flies. Fancy that, eh?

"It's okay.", "I don't mind." ,"I'll be fine."
Things you say when something doesn't go as planned. Come on, admit it, you don't mean it all the time, right? Yet, these are common words used, usually meant as it is, but few hides a meaning.
What do you do when you really do mind?
When it's not okay? When you're no where near "fine"?
Tell them, of course!
Yeah, right. Everyone knows it's not always as easy as that.

Sixteen, i am now. Definitely old enough to decide what's right and wrong for myself. I've learnt many things and there's more to be learnt. From someone who trusted everyone, i've turned to someone who trusts a handful. I've been seeing things differently, thinking differently. "What if"s keep coming up. The O's feels closer than it seems. It's scaring me. Here i am, trying to juggle everything without cracking. I want to change some things in my life. I have to. And i need to do it soon, if not now, before it's too late.

Lethargic. I am. It's just 8pm and i feel like it's way past 1am.
Assignments to be done, i can do this.
I have to do this.

2009-03-30T21:58:00.003+08:00

Can't forget to breathe slow,
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed.

Heyy.

Get this, i have math and MT assignments to be done. I have physics test tomorrow, i'll study that later. It's 10.07PM, i'm dead beat and here i am, blogging.

Plus, Mid-year's coming. Someone kill me, just kill me now.
I know i'll snap out of it sooner or later but.. just, not now.

I'm tired. Really. Of everything, for now.
It's taking everything to just breathe.

Lately, i've been having.. fears(?), i should say. I can't put it in words, really. Or maybe i just don't want to. Everyday, it just seems easier to smile and pretend i'm totally fine and get on with life. Yet, how come it seems to get harder everyday?
Fuck, i think too much.

Before i lose it, get composure.

*ssssscccrrrrrreeeeaaaaammmsssss*
*clears throat*
Life's so wicked awesome.(:

2009-03-23T22:10:00.006+08:00

It's my birthday.
Yeah, it's my birthday.

^ It's up on my bedroom wall, yo.
*zac efronnnnnnnnnnnnnn*

^SIXTEEN!
Just wish time would slow down a lil.

Thank you everyone for their birthday wishes/songs, well-wishes and gifts. I love and appreciate them all, i really do.
And, i love you(s).
Once again, thank you so very much! (:

Best birthday, so far. <3

NC16 movies, here i come!
(even if i need an IC to prove i'm of age.)

SAFWAH.

2009-03-21T14:08:00.008+08:00

I'll be there for you,
when the rain starts to fall.

Wednesday's pictures; [18March]

Friends that turned into family.
i love you girls. (:

Safwah.

2009-03-20T17:58:00.001+08:00

If it's gonna be a rainy day,
there's nothing we can do to make it change.

Heyy.

Wednesday, had chem remedial in the morning. Also Reeta's birthday.After chem, had a pleasant surprise. Cut the story short, in my clique, only Reeta and I are march babies, and the others surprised us. Nadiah baked both of us a birthday cake. An advanced for me. It had honeystars on it. HAHA, but it was quite good. Chocolate-y. :D

Thanks girls, ily.

*feel free to click on the picture above to see the cake.

Watched Race To Witch Mountain with Mama yesterday. Good movie, i should say. In my opinion. After that, Mama bought me the green converse shoes i wanted as an advanced birthday gift. *squeals in delight* Then, we ate at Sakura. WOOH. Haha. :P

Three more days. :D
Safwah.

2009-03-15T10:58:00.003+08:00

You got a piece of me,
And honestly, my life would suck without you.

Heyy.

I love this song, Kelly Clarkson rocks!
Enough said.

A week's come and gone. Got my class tee. Huge, but thank goodness it's dry fit. It's soft, so it falls on your body nicely, thus, not looking that big on me. It's not that bad, really. Looks better than i thought it would. The hand that's supposed to show the rock sign has crooked fingers, but whatever.

So, i have remedials during the holidays.
Surprise, surprise.

Monday;
8AM-9AM BIO
(Break)
11AM-1PM BIO
2PM-5PM ART

Tuesday;
8AM-9AM HISTORY

Wednesday;
8AM-10AM CHEMISTRY
2PM-5PM ART

Thursday;
Nothing, yet.

Friday;
THANK YOUUUU, PROTECTED TIME!

Movies I Simply Must Watch This Year.
Push.
Race to Witch Mountain.
UP.
Confessions of a Shopaholic.
17 Again!!! (ZAC EFRON!!! *fangirls*)
Adventureland.
Harry Potter 6.
Street Fighter, The Legend Of Chun-Li.
Transformers 2.
The Wave.
X-Men Origins: Wolverine

That's all, for now.
Coming soon, anyone?

Safwah.

2009-03-09T17:49:00.007+08:00

So I won't give up, no, I won't break down
Sooner than it seems, life turns around.
And I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe,
Someone's watching over me

Heyy.

Sick, again. Cured from fever, caught a cold. Ironic. My nose is running like a water pipe.

One of those days. Today, i had one of those days. One of those days when nothing goes your way, one of those days when everything you do doesn't seem good enough. One of those days when you feel so alone and insignificant towards everyone, it gets really depressing. One of those days when you sit back and wonder if you're really worth anything. Just one of those days. Sigh.

More than words. Honestly, i appreciate being told when people say they do care for me, or they'll be there for me when i need them, anyone, to be. To a certain extend, it makes my day just a tiny bit better. But what i need most is not reassurance of words, what i need most is to feel the concern, to see it. An encouraging smile, a gentle pat on the back, a hug. It's true what they say, actions does speak louder than words.

Thank you, V. For today, for listening to me, for showing me that you really do care. It meant a lot, you made my day a whole lot better. And no, i won't forget you, we still have that list of things to do together. (:

Safwah.

2009-03-07T20:42:00.008+08:00

I know sometimes it's gonna rain.

But baby, can't we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.

QUOTE OF THE WEEK:
"This moment will never come again."

Heyy.

So yesterday was OP idol! Awesome, would have been more awesome if i didn't have a freaking fever. Can't even completely tell you how bad i was feeling. Felt like i was dying, seriously. IT. WAS. TORTURE. Came to school anyway because bestie Nazry was performing. And i wanted to support him since it was our last year, now, i wouldn't wanna miss that, would i? I think he did great. The other contestants were okay, except a few extraordinary ones, like this sec 1 dude, named Jerome (or something). I must say, he rocked! Like seriously. :D

Got home at about 5-ish pm, showered, took 2 pills of panadol and slept. Kept waking up because i don't think i can feel anymore worser than i was feeling already. Everything ached, i swear i could cry. It was only when i woke up at 9plus at night that i felt better. Then woke up this morning, with a slight fever again, took panadol again, rested and then got better by 2pm. WOOHOO!

Natasha & I were talking about the current rumour about Chris Brown abusing Rihanna. God knows what really happened, right? But as far as we, normal civillians know, it does seem like he beat and bit her. If that's true, my goodness, what's wrong with him?! I mean, you bit the girl?! Tsk. This can totally relate to songs like Face Down by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

So anyway, we were talking about it till it unintentionally became sort of like a short joke. HAHA.
Natty-ism says:
i was pretty shocked when i heard it
Safwah; never that easy. says:
Disturbing..
Natty-ism says:
disturbia..and erm, superhuman.
Safwah; never that easy. says:
HAHA
Safwah; never that easy. says:
She should totally Say Goodbye
Natty-ism says:
haha. yeah man.
Natty-ism says:
she should have Run It too
Safwah; never that easy. says:
You know.. if this goes on, she might get depressed and go to Rehab
Natty-ism says:
Rihanna says, Hate that i love you, then, Cry.
Safwah; never that easy. says:
HAHAHAAA
Safwah; never that easy. says:
Wait
Safwah; never that easy. says:
..
Safwah; never that easy. says:
She wasn't Unfaithful, was she?
Natty-ism says:
Nope. hahahah

Get it, get it? XD

Safwah.

Pictures;

OP idol hosts.
Zalikha & Fatiha. (:

Begging you for mercy.
Hotstuff, Hasyima. (:

The dude who had an affair with Mrs Jones.
Bestie, Syunnazry. (:

Almost Candid.

That's what you get when you let your heart win,
Nazry & Jerome, the rocking dude. (:

One word, Whatever. :D

Larger Than Life. (:

SEC FOURS, BIATCH. :D

2009-02-27T19:48:00.004+08:00

All you have to do is call my name,
no matter how close or far away.

Heyy.

Changed blogskin. Didn't feel like doing anything related to school, so.. yeah.

WOOOH! The another week over. Busy, busy. I haven't used the computer for a week! It's funny how fast time passes by when you have so much to do and go home so late. I think i'm stressed. I just try not to show it. I don't want wrinkles. (:

Well, there's nothing much to say.
So till next time dudes & dudettes!
WORLD PEACE! :)

JUST FOR LAUGHS;

*No racist insults intended. (:
;Taken from photobucket.

Besties till the end.

Hey, imysfm, biatch.

Safwah.

2009-02-22T04:12:00.003+08:00

Life is a maze & love is a riddle.

Heyy.

I have a reason of blogging twice today. Well, it's currently 4.17AM. I'm still awake. Probably because i slept A LOT yesterday afternoon. And when i say a lot, i mean like, possibly half the day.

Anyway, i've watched movies for the past.. um, hours. I watched Independence Day, Super Bad and currently, House Bunny. I did my homework too. Math is done and i'm half-way through my MT homework. :D

I am still not sleepy, yet. So that'll be a problem cause when i sleep in and then wake up, not knowing whether i'll be able to sleep at night then if i don't, i'm gonna have a bad day in school on Monday. Which is already, as included in the name MONDAY, bad.

Well, back to House Bunny,
and what's left of MT homework. (:
Safwah.

2009-02-22T00:09:00.004+08:00

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace

Heyy.

SURVEY TIME!
WOOHHH.
Taken from: Azi. <3

Think of 6 people
and GO:

1. Natasha
2. Nazry
3. Azi
4. Nadiah
5. Syafiqah
6. Fatiha

Basic questions...
Who have you known the longest?: Natasha.
Who have you known the shortest?: Fatiha, i suppose.
Who is the youngest?: Fatiha. (:
Who is the oldest?: Nadiah!
Are they your only friends?: Uh, no.
Who of them were your childhood friends?: Natasha.
Who makes you laugh the hardest: Natasha.
Who is the most serious?: Nazry, i guess. Hardly. x)
Who is the loudest?: Nadiah. Haha.
How many of them go to your school: 5.
Are any of them going out?: None.
Are any of them hot?: ALL! x)
Are any of them ugly?: None.
How many boys?: 1
how many girls?: 2

1. Natasha
Has he/she made you smile: Almost all the time.
Name a time that they made you sad: Can't remember.
Would you ever go out with this person?: If i was a guy, MAYBE. x)
Is this person serious or funny: FUNNY! :D
What was your first impression of this person?: I.. can't remember, honestly.
Is this person your best friend?: The best. BFFs, biatch. :D
Is it a boy or a girl?: Girl.
Does this person make you laugh?: Yeah, almost all the time.
What word reminds you of them?: Nunga, biatch, dweeb, koneng, breathless, armpit, freak & the list goes on & on.
Do you trust them?: In theory. (:
Do you love them?: DUH, like a sista. :D
What is your best memory with them?: TWILIGHT MOVIE IN THE CINEMA. HAHA! (;
If you were stranded on a desert island would you want them to be there?: YEAHHHHHH. That'll be nice. At least i won't have to befriend a monkey.

2. Nazry
How old is she/he?: Sixteen in october. :)
Do they live near you?: Kinda.
Do they ever get on your nerves?: DU-UH. :P
What's your best memory with them?: Our little memorable outings. :D
Have you ever cried in front of them?: Nope, not really.
Do you love them?: YEAHHH, in a platonic kinda way. (:
How did you meet them?: Actually, i knew him before he knew me. I know, makes me sound like a stalker, doesn't it? x)
Have you ever met this person's parents?: Yeah, the mum only though.
Are they single?: Nope.
Have they ever seen you embarrass yourself?: Ah.. unfortunately, yes. Haha!
Do you care about this person?: He's my bestfriend, what d'you think?
What color hair do they have?: Black, i guess.

3. Azi
Do they play any sports?: Uh, does she? I think so, some. x)
Do they go to your school?: Yeah.
What's their name?: Zaris Azira :D
Have you ever been in a fight with this person?: I think so.. can't remember though?
Do you have any nicknames for this person?: Moony(i know right?haha), but most importantly, AZI!
does this person play an instrument?: Not that i know of.
Does this person have your number?: Yeah.
What's something that reminds you of this person?: Uh.. stuff. (:
Are they in any of your classes?: Sadly, no.
When was the last time you hung out?: A few days ago.

4. Nadiah
What is their name: Nurul Nadiah.
Boy or girl?: Girl.
Hair color?: Black.
Have you ever been shopping with this person?: Yeah, sort of, for art stuff. (:
What's their best quality?: Her super LAMENESS. (:
Are they nice?: Not really, but kinda. HAHA. Confusing much? :D
Whats the nicest thing they've ever done for you?: Made me laugh when i'm having a bad day. (:
Have you been to their house before?: Yeah, during hari raya.
Have they ever had an awesome party?: Uh, not that i know of.
How long have you known them: 2 years, counting. (:
Do you love them?: How can i not love that setempek face? x)

5. Syafiqah
Where does this person live?: Somewhere over there.. *points finger to a direction*
What is their favorite sport?: Uh, favourite? I'm not sure..
Do they have any nicknames for you?: Saf, nationally & universally used. x)
Do you have any nicknames for them?: Syafifi! :P
Are you two close?: Pretty much.
Have they seen you naked?: NOOO.
Have you ever worked with this person?: No, hope so, soon.
How did you meet?: Madrasah.
When did you meet?: Um, around 5 years ago, when pluto was still a planet. :D

6. Fatiha
What color hair do they have?: Black.
Why are you their friend?: How would i know? Ask her. (:
Whats an inside joke between you two?: Uh.. do we have an inside joke?
What school do they go to?: Mine.
Do you know them well?: Guess so.
What is the first thing that comes to mind when you think of them?: ADORABLE!
When was the last time you guys hung out?: Few days ago.
Do you hang out a lot?: Sadly, no.
How do you know them?: Uh, beginning of last year or was it last 2 years?
Do you trust them?: Kinda, i suppose.
Do you know their parents?: Uhh, no. Haha.
Whats the most fun you've had with them?: Most of the time we hang out together. (:

ABOUT ALL OF THEM
Do you have a crush on any of them?: Nopeeee.
Ditzyist?: Fatiha? x)
You talk online with the most: Uh, Natasha. Which is hardly.
Have you ever traveled anywhere with anyone on your top 6?: Don't think so..
Have you ever hated anyone on your top 6?: No.
Have you ever done anything illegal with anyone on your top 6?: Not that i remember of.
Have you ever played on a sports team with anyone on your top 6?: Yeah.
Have you ever been pissed at anyone in your 6?: Yeahh.
Have you ever told any of the 6 you loved them?: Uh-huh. Love them all. (:
Which of your friends on your six will fill this out?: Who knows? :D

Safwah.

2009-02-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

Pictures of you, pictures of me.
Hung upon your wall, for the world to see.

Heyy.

Complicated. That's what life is right now, complicated. Not to mention that i'm so behind for my art, think i might actually crack sooner than i thought. It'll be better soon, i guess. That's what i've been telling myself, hoping it will.

All i need right now is constant comfort, support, motivation and a daily dose of Nadiah's lameness. (:

So it's february. Mock Exam is in around 3 months, Prelims are in around 6 months. And O'levels are in around 7 months. Omg. I just had a mental slap. Oh crap. *screamm*
OMG, Safwah! Snap out of it! YOUR. FUTURE. DEPENDS. ON. THIS.

Sigh. Wouldn't it be fun.
Safwah.

2009-02-08T11:26:00.002+08:00

I'm sick.

I wanna go out. (for leisure)

I'm losing my mind.

SEC FOUR SUCKKKKKK.

Enough said.

2009-02-07T14:05:00.004+08:00

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, i'm not over it.

Heyy.

So um, i'm supposed to follow my parents and brother to my cousin's wedding at Johor. Don't know why i didn't go. Oh yeah, was supposed to go out with people, but they cancelled, so yeah. Should've gone, cause there's food there. Free food. I mean, what's wrong with me?! There's no food at home, not really anyway, so i had to eat maggi for breakfast. Going out later with V to eat my lunch+dinner.

Sorry Natasha, for being like that when you called. Just don't have the mood today. I'll call you back soon kay? Promise.

I have assignments to do. And 2 tests to study for. Did i mention art?
If i even have the time or feel like it, that is.
Whoopee. Gonna have the time of my life.

I'm so tired.
I just wish time would slow down.
Safwah.

P.S; Hahahahahahaaaaaaaa. Talk about hypocrites. *shivers*

2009-02-02T19:15:00.003+08:00

See, I'm a young soul in this very strange world.
Hoping i could learn a bit 'bout what is true and fake.

Heyy.

I know right? I've just got to update.

So, recently just started to settle into hectic sec 4 life. Things had just started to slow down and if i get home any time before 6pm, is early to me. Imagine that. I'm still busy though. What, with remedials, homework. Oh, trust me, i'm feeling the pressure. But i'm still gonna try to achieve my 2009 resolutions, and so far, i've made new friends and the year has been good. I know it's still early to say so, but i'd like to believe that the more i say it, it'll continue to be good.

It's easy for me to keep in touch with friends in the same class. Can't say the same for those from other classes though. It's been 5 weeks and i haven't really spent time with certain people. Not as much as i used to. I'm trying though, to fit them in whenever's possible.

Lalala.. so, today was a good day, i should say. Especially eating McD with Reeta, Syafiqah and Lina. Laughed our ass-es off. Seriously had fun. They made me realise i say, "anyway..." ,wayyy too much. But it's a habit and it's not a bad word, so i shan't change it. And a lot of things were said and done, which made us laugh till our tummy hurt. :D

i need a new book. :/

NUNGA-NUNGA!
Safwah. (:

2009-01-20T22:41:00.001+08:00

Today was an awesome day.
Enough said.

Safwah.

2009-01-17T18:40:00.005+08:00

Heyy.

Second week of school has ended. And i feel as if it's been a year. Yes, i am that tired. All mentally, emotionally and physically. Apart from being so exhausted, there's this little girl, in green overalls and a little green bow on her head, in me that's running in circles and screaming her head off. The fact that this year is my year of taking the (probably) most important exam of my life and me not being that prepared is scaring the shit out of me. Like, seriously. The setempekers help me keep my sanity every waking school day. Honestly, without them, i think i would've cracked by now. I probably still will though, soon.

Sigh. *Screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms*

Anyway, anyone wanna buy my brother's album? It's hip hop. He's in this hip hop society in Singapore called X.S. It costs $12. Better buy it from me than at HMV, it's $15 there.
If you're interested, do tell me. To hear how the album would sound like, go to his myspace.
Click Here

Safwah.

2009-01-02T16:53:00.004+08:00

An ocean of emotion,
My heart rips me wide open.

Heyy.

Today, i woke up and got ready for school. Was supposed to go to school with Nazry. But i totally got the time wrong. I realised it only when i was on the way to meet him. Was supposed to be there by 6.30AM. But instead, i went out at 6.30AM. He had to be in school by 6.45AM. But in my mind, i had to meet him at 6.45AM. Ended up going to school alone. Oh gosh, what's wrong with me?! -.-
Sorry bestie.

For the rest of the day, i would say it has been a very awesome day. I was happy to see everyone again. It was just so good to be back in school that i don't think i have anything to complain about. How was the first day for the rest of you? :D

After school, went to lunch with V. Talked a lot with her. It was really nice. :D

Um, so, i have to finish some stuff over the weekend. I have to. Mrs Liu made me sit right in front. And i don't think i can ever get away with not doing or bringing my homework. Really pressurising. But i guess it's good. It makes me do my assignments and actually focus on my studies.

Will blog again soon.
Yeah, nunga-nunga to you too. :D
(And no, i won't stop saying that.)

Safwah.

2009-01-01T12:06:00.003+08:00

Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight.
I'm beginning to see the light.

Heyy.

Happy New Year. :)

Honestly, i can't feel any difference. At all.

Watched Ms Universe yesterday. The whole time i was watching, i was thinking to myself, "Fall. Come on, trip and fall. Fall now!" . Hehe, and Ms USA tripped. I swear i just burst out laughing. Sadistic? I guess so. But i was just expecting it and it's just bound to happen. Sure, they're gorgeous. I was hoping Ms Columbia or Ms Mexico would win though. They were, wow. I mean, i'm a girl and they just 'wow' me. Imagine the effect on guys.

Watched countdown half-way, then got bored. So i used the computer for a while more, then i went to sleep. Had some senseless dream yesterday. I know it was senseless, random even. But i cant seem to remember what it was about. :/

Anyone has the book New Moon by Stephanie Meyer? I would like to borrow, please. For 4 days, at the most. :D

OMG, school starts tomorrow. I'm not really sure if i'm supposed to be happy or freaking out. Still feeling numb, so i can't feel anything much. Sigh. Oh well, at least i'd be able to see my friends again. And i'll be the senior. That, i'm excited about. Thinking of going to Ngee Ann Poly's open house. It's gonna be on the 8th to 10th Jan. Anyone interested to go with me? Text me kay. (:

Yes, nunga-nunga to you too. :D

Safwah.

2008-12-30T13:46:00.004+08:00

When you feel so low,

you can't feel nothing at all.

Heyy.

So, um, to keep things fair, under the "<3" are people who have either been there for me a lot, cheered me up, made me laugh till i cry , whom i think understands me better than the rest and probably, i hope, be the ones who'd stick around for a very, very long time. To put it in simpler words, i hope we'd be friends forever. You rock uh, ily lah. :D

On Sunday, went to watch Twilight with Natasha. Wanted to watch Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging but the bitch behind the counter told us it wasn't showing on that day. Wonder why i call her the bitch behind the counter? She had this stupid bored face on which almost tells you to leave her alone. So much for Serve with a Smile. Then, something stupid happened in the cinema, i shall not say what kay. Laughed a lot, though it wasn't that funny. But it was a hella lot of fun. Got Twilight book from her, finished reading it in 2 days. One, if you count it by hours. :)

Recently been feeling rather numb. Everything is sinking in slowly. Going to Sec 4, turning 16, O's, graduating. Most would say they're already panicking or feeling the pressure. But i just feel numb. Maybe i'd freak on the first day of school or something. Everything is just passing by way too fast. I just want it to slow down. But obviously it's not happening, so i guess i just have to catch up.

School is starting soon too. Every assignment is almost done. I'm just left with a little here and there. But whatever, so not in the mood. Hope the school doesn't look stupid, though from what i heard, i think it does. Yellow walls and orange doors? What are we, in kindergarten? Geez.

Changed the song again. I just love this song.
Yeah, nunga-nunga to you too.

Safwah.

2008-12-27T01:19:00.004+08:00

I'm leaving my fingerprints.

Heyy.

So um, changed the blog song. Katy Perry rocks kay! :D I so love this song, plus i think i might want to make this song sort of like a theme song for next year. You know, me being sec 4 now. Suits, dont you think? :) And i sort of changed some pictures under "The Simple Things" . Even if your face isn't there, i still love you okay. I'm just lazy to find the pictures. Haha. :)

I've probably said this a lot, but not only am i so freaking anxious (& not to mention horrified) about O'levels, but the thought of leaving is overwhelming. Therefore, i've decided to make next year, if possible, the best year in Orchid Park, for me anyway. :)

Today, i went to do assignments with Nazry. Went to the yishun library and it was full. So we went to BK instead. I totally had a mental breakdown. I just couldn't do anything. But it got better. We started on what we thought was an impossibly difficult chemistry assignment. But it wasn't that hard at all. He taught me, possibly, half the stuff i didn't quite get and actually got me getting the answers right. Thanks bestie, if you hadn't forced me to start on chemistry with you, i would never have tried it at all. It was definately a self-esteem boost. :D

Anyway, i do have quite a few assignments left, but i think i'll be able to finish it in time. I think. Oh well.

I've also done a to/must-do-list for next year.
(You may skip this part) :D

Smile (much, much) more.
Control horrible temper.
Be more optimistic.
Be less stubborn.
If possible, make more friends.
Study harder.
Get rid of bad habits.
Save up. (kaaaa-chingggg)
Do more chores around the house, willingly.
Be a better friend.
HUG MORE. aka Operation-Spread-More-Love.
Try to make 2009 my closest friends' best year too.
JUST BE NICER!
Have an AWESOME 16th birthday.
Improve on my studies. (oh please, oh please)
Pass Mock Exam pretty well.
Do my best for O'levels. (prays)
Decide on which poly/course i want to take.
Graduate in style. ;)
Get a much-better-paying-job-than-McD-or-KFC.
Save up for original levi's jeans.
Prom Night.
Keep in touch with friends.
Call 2009 the best year i've had, yet.

Ta-daaa! That was one hell of a list, isn't it? I think i missed out some stuff though...

Anyway, once i've had pictures from my cousin from the time i was in KL, i'll probably post it up. And if you really read this really long post, i love you lah, okay? Serious. :D

Safwah.

2008-12-24T14:26:00.002+08:00

100 questions to do ;

1]What have you been doing recently?
- Eat. Sleep. Tv. Not-doing-homework.

2]Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- When the batt runs low, or something.

3]What happened at 10am today?
- I woke up.

4]When did you last cry?
- Cant remember.

5]Believe in fate/destiny?
- Sometimes.

6]What do you want in yr life now?
- Nothing much.

7]Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up yr hood?
- Depends.

8]What's yr favourite thing to have on yr bed?
- Pillows.

9]What bottoms are you wearing now?
- Track pants.

10]Whats the nicest thing in yr inbox?
- Nothing much.

11]Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
- Not really.

12]Are you wearing anything borrowed frm someone?
- Nope.

13]What was the last movie you caught?
- Eagle Eye on dvd.

14]What are you proud of?
- Quite a number of things.

15]What does yr oldest text msg in yr inbox says?
- A long text from Azii.

16]What was the last song you sang out loud?
- Womanizer.

17]Do you have any nicknames?
- Yeah, quite a few.

18]What does yr last receive text msg says?
- "I'm here."

19]What time did you go to bed last nite?
- Around 1?

20]Are you currently happy?
- Yeah, pretty much :D

21]Who gives you the best advice?
- My mum. Natasha.

22]Do you eat whipped cream straight frm the can?
- Dont think so.

23]With whom did you talk on the phone last night?
- Shereena.

24]Is something bugging you now?
- Yeah.

25]What/who was the last person to make you laugh?
- V and Een.

26]Do you wear toe socks?
- Nope.

27]Who was the last person you missed a call frm?
- Een.

28]Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Yeah.

29]What annoys you most in a person?
- Hypocritical.

30]Do you have a crush on someone?
- Nope.

31]Have you ever done cocaine?
- Hell no.

32]What is the colour of yr room?
- Greeeennn :D

33]Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
- Not really.

34]Do you believe in the saying, ’Talk is cheap’?
- Sometimes.

35]Who was the last person to lie in yr bed?
- V and Een.

36]Who was the last person to hug you?
- V.

37]Did you see the last person you kissed recently?
- My mum? Yeah, just now.

38]Do you have a life?
- Duh, do you?

39]Have you ever thought someone died, when they didn't?
- Sorry? Could you repeat that?

40]What is the reason behind yr profile song?
- Superhuman? It's nice :D

41]Who was the last person you saw in yr dreams?
- I cant remember.

42]Last time you smiled?
- Few seconds ago.

43]Have you changed this year?
- I think..

44]What are you listening to right now?
- Nothing.

45]Are you talking to someone while doing this?
- Sort of.

46]Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
- Open, duh?

47]Is there a quote you live by?
- A couple.

48]Do you want someone you can never have?
- Uh, not really? Not yet, i suppose.

49]Have you ever played an instrument?
- Yeah.

50]What was the worst idea you’ve had this week?
- idk.

51]What were you doing last night at 11pm?
- Watching Madagascar 2.

52]Are you happy with your love life right now?
- No love life.

53]What song best describes yr love life?
- No love life.

54]Does the person know you like him/her?
- NO LOVE LIFE! Geez.

55]Who always makes you laugh?
- Natasha. She makes me laugh till i cry, literally.

56]Do you speak other languages other than english?
- Malay.

57]Favourite websites?
- Friendster, youtube.

58]Whats yr middle name?
- Binte? LOL.

60]What do you think you are like?
- This and that.

61]Who will you choose to die with?
- Alone.

62]Where have you been today?
- Um, toilet, living room, bedroom, kitchen, balcony.

63]What game do you play often?
- I dont play games much anymore.

64]Who are you missing now?
- Quite a few people.

65]If you had to choose between your friend or your lover which will you choose?
- Depends.

66]What are you doing right now?
- Doing this and talking to V and Een.

67]Which primary school are you from?
- Jiemin Primary School.

68]Name 3 colours that you like?
- Green. Red. Blue.

69]What emotion do you like to show?
- idk.

70]What is yr life to you?
- My life is my life, duh.

71]If you have something bothering you what will you do?
- Freak out or something.

72]Who did you last chat on msn today?
- Never chatted on msn today.

73]Who do you admire the most?
- My mama, Pink.

74]Which month were you born in?
- March.

75]How are you feeling right now?
- This and that.

76]What is the time now?
- 4.10pm.

77]What kind of person do you think of the one who tagged you?
- Lazy to jot this down. :D

78]What colour did you use to dye yr hair?
- I didn't dye my hair.

79]Why are you doing this test?
- Natasha asked me to.

80]What do you do when you are moody?
- Keep to myself and snap at annoying people.

81]At which age do you wish to get married?
- 24? Too young? My problem :D

82]Who is more important to you?
- My parents.

83]If today was the last day of your life what would you do?
- Taubat and ask forgiveness from people? :D

84]Who is the person you trust the most?
- idk.. don't really trust myself much sometimes.

85]Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- Yeah.

86]If you had a dream come true what would it be?
- Waking up once day, knowing that my dream(whatever it is) has came true.

87]What is your goal for this year?
- This year? Finish my assignments before school starts? Haha.

88]Do you believe in eternal love?
- Depends.

89]What feeling do you love the most?
- Satisfaction, the feeling of being loved and that funny happy feeling of being around the person i really like.

90]Do you think its Global Warming now?
- Yes.

91]What feeling do you hate the most?
- Anger, irritation and hurt.

92]You like doing quizzes?
-When im bored.

93]Do you believe in God?
- Yeah.

94]Who cares for you the most?
- My parents, i suppose.

95]What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Um..

96]What will you bring when you fight?
- Life Insurance.

97]What have you regretted doing your whole life?
- A lot of things.

98]What would you do if nobody cared for you?
- Learn to stand alone.

99]What would you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
- Oh, it's SO over.

100]How do you feel now?
- Relieved that i've finished this :DD

Natasha, imydweeb.
Safwah.

2008-12-13T12:14:00.004+08:00

It just doesn't seem to matter anymore.

Heyy.

I'm gonna go pick up my granny and her maid later, then cab to my mum's friend's son's engagement thingy. And after today, i'm just left with 2 more days till i can go to Malaysia. I really can't wait to go.

Honestly, been feeling very bummed out lately. Don't feel like talking to any of my friends, don't feel like meeting them, hardly feel like even replying their messages either, but i do reply them. Not that there are many who contacts me or much to reply on anyway. Sure i miss some of them, wayyy too much actually. But i feel so bummed out, i don't want to even talk them. Half of them don't even contact me and i'm always the one asking, "Hey, how're you? imy." .So whatever uh, doesn't make any difference if i don't call or text them. It's almost like everyone expects to be contacted and no one makes the effort to. I'm seriously almost tired of being the one making the effort. Almost too tired.

Like anyone cares, right? Don't even know why i'm blogging this up.

Anyway, have to go out tomorrow for Cikgu Fauzia's wedding with the Setempekers and probably some others. Have to cause i haven't seen then since forever & will probably die if i dont see them tomorrow. So they'll be the last i'll go out with before i leave Singapore on the 16th. Bet i'll feel better tomorrow, when i'm out with them.

Won't be going online anymore, if you wanna contact me, text me. If not, i'll see you other peeps whenever,wherever. If that doesn't work out either, then ahhh, whatever uh.

To Nazry & Natasha; I know i haven't been calling or texting much, but i'll call you two before i go to Malaysia, alrighty? Individually, of course.

Safwah.

2008-12-09T15:32:00.006+08:00

I'm much better at goodbyes than you.

Heyy.

SURPRISE! I'm still alive :D

So, um, a few days ago, i went shopping with Mama. Went to Suntec to send Ayah his specs, then went to walk around the mall. I swear i can get lost in there. Anyway, bought a belt and this sweater. It's pink. I bet you're like, PINK?! I know right? But it's hot pink. With a bit of green here and there. Sounds weird, but it looks pretty nice. It's a Disney thing. Hard to explain really, but it's nice. Haha. Ate at KFC, then went home after seeing Ayah again. Took 857, i think. And my gosh, that bus goes to bus stops near like a dozen other malls.

Anyway, here's the funny part. Well, funny to me. While walking to back from the bus stop to my house with my mum, this happens. (In brakets are translations)

*Talking & laughing*
*Mama sees dog poo on the grass and almost stepped on it*
Mama; EH, BABI! *avoids the poo* (EH, PIG!)
*i looked on the floor and saw the poo.*
*looks at each other*
*silence*
Me; *sniggers* WHAT did you just say?
Mama; *looks at me & sniggers too* Mama nak cakap "taik", terkeluar "babi". (I wanted to say "poo", accidently said, "pig")
Me; *still holding back laughter* Takde kene mengene pun! (There's no link!)
Mama; *half-laughing* Entah. (I don't know)
*Both burst out laughing*

Haha, i still can't believe she said that, outloud.

Yesterday was Hari Raya Aidiladha. It was all right, wasn't all that boring. All i did was eat, talk with my cousins, look at their phones and sit around. Did i mention eat?

Anywho, assignments are still not done. HAHA. I hate assignments. Actually, i don't. I just hate holiday assignments. Scary how one word can change my feelings towards something. Nazry's right. Screw homework. Sigh, gonna start soon. Soon..

A week left till i'm off to Malaysia. Not that hardly anyone seem to care i'm still in Singapore or not, whether i'm still alive or not. But it's just, FYI.

Sigh, it gets really lonely here sometimes. Almost dead. Sometimes, i wonder why i still update this blog. Sometimes, i forget why i havent deleted this thing.

Safwah.

2008-12-03T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for breaking all the promises

that i wasn't around to keep.

Heyy.

I am happy today. :DDDDD

Nazry's cousin, Azeerah, got free tickets to some film event of some sort. It's a prize presentation for youths who made short films. It wasn't as boring as i thought it'll be. Azeerah was really friendly, so was her friend (i sorta forgot her name, hehe). They're both sixteen year olds. So we gotta talk and get to know each other, it was so weird at first, but they were friendly, so it got a lil comfortable after that. The four of us actually got there early, really early. I fidgeted a lot cause the wait was just so long.

I didn't know Singapore has mayors. O.O

So anyway, there was this lucky draw thing. My seat number won. My number actually won. 0217. The moment it was read out, i just went stiff. Nazry knew it was my number so he went stiff too. We both literally stopped moving. Funny thing is, we actually thought that if we won, we'll just keep quiet and let someone else win. But Azeerah offered to go up and take for me, so i let her. And the weirdest thing happened. The next seat number that was read out was 0218. Nazry won! (By the way, the lady who was giving out the prize saw him going up to take, and she was like, "Oh, he's wearing green. OH! GREEN SHOES TOO!", Azeerah, her friend and I just burst out laughing. The way she reacted to that, it was just priceless.) So we both got 2 pairs of free movie tickets to any movie. Negotiated and decided to give my pair of free tickets to Azeerah and her friend and he'll give one of his to me. So all of us got one free ticket. Planned to meet up one day and we can watch a movie together.

After the whole thing, walked around Plaza Singapura then I went to Woodlands to meet Mama and Mak Busu while he went home. The moment i reached, i had to find them at Lerk Thai. It's this eating place beside McD. The McD at the civic library. Ate a very awesome dinner with them, went to causeway for Mak Busu to buy stuff then took a taxi home.

Tomorrow morning, sending Mak Busu off at the airport. She's gonna visit my aunt who lives at Canada. *Screammmmmm* I WANNA GO!! Sigh, anyway, if i'm lucky, i can get to eat Popeyes tomorrow.

Tomorrow evening, i have tuition. I got a new tutor near Natasha's house. Really near, like just 2 stories below. She seems nice, the tutor. Except for her HUGE dog. It's just freaking huge. But she locks it up when we come over, but still. Cynophobic. Seriously. I can RUN from a puppy. Just because it's coming my way. Yeah, you better believe it, cause it happened once. Shall not talk about that.

Private blogs, i hate them too. I think i did lose readers. IF i had readers. I'll just read all these myself if there aren't any. I've been using this since sec 1, it's kind of sad if i deleted it. So i shan't. I think. Maybe.

Oh well.

Safwah.

P.S; Bestie, thanks again for the awesome day & it. :DDD
Note To Self; Clean the room, do assignments, stop rotting brain.

2008-12-01T12:19:00.003+08:00

Next day i'm your supergirl,

Out to save the world and it keeps getting better.

Heyy.

Oh look, i'm updating! YAY ME! :D

Yesterday, i went to Expo with Abang Naufal and Mama. It was crowded and i was starving. Oooh, i got so cranky. You have no idea how crowded it was. Abang wanted a laptop, so we were going to the IT Fair to buy one. People shoving, pushing, cutting through here and there.. i swear i wanted to snap someone's arm off and tear it to pieces. Fortunately, the moment we got in, some guy talked us into some Toshiba laptops. So bro made his pick, made the payments, then we had to go up to the second floor to redeem some free stuff. The line was endless. ENDLESS, i tell ya! It reminded me of some Idol auditions or something.

Anyway, after that, we planned to go to Changi Airport and see if we could get a seat at Popeyes and have our meal before going home. But we couldn't. So we bought some stuff from Mr Bean, and took the bus home. The bus was again, crowded, but we managed to get seats. Thank God for that.

The whole day yesterday was just dragging. Everything required a lot of waiting. The Mrt, the long lines, the bus, fooodddd.. I just really- I HATE WAITING, KAY.

Today, Nazry, Reeta and Amalina are coming back from Vietnam! WOOOOHHHHH. I so want to go to the airport. But there were complications. I didn't know what time was the flight, which terminal and mama thinks it's a waste of time. Haha. God, i miss them.

Wait, i miss a lot of people. LOL.

I miss the Setempekers.
I miss Natasha and Nazry.
I miss Fatiha, Hash, Een, Fina and Amalina.

I miss S3 peeps and Victoria Lee.
I miss Azira.

I miss school. (Call me a geek, cause i do.)

RANDOMMM ;

Zac Efron <33
Ass off, haters. (:

Safwah.

2008-11-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

You did this to me

Super human heart beats in me

Heyy.

So, um, made my blog private. I don't really like private blogs. Really. But mama doesn't like the idea of strangers of all sorts having access to my blog. So, you do the math. She does make me think about all those weird people in this world... freaks me out. Oh well, not many people actually read anything here anyway, right? Plus i don't need to feel paranoid about teachers reading my blog secretly either.

Nothing much happened lately. Went to the library a couple of times, and no, not to do my assignments, but to borrow books. Yes, i read. And no, i don't only read magazines.

Also made a discreet trip to vivo. Hehe. Shh. At least now, i won't turn 16 in 4 months knowing i haven't been to vivo. Yay me!

I hope Nazry and Reeta will get safely home in 5-4 days time. Damn, i miss them.

So yeah, i'll update if i update. (:
Safwah.

2008-11-18T15:04:00.004+08:00

Wish i could save the world,

like i was supergirl.

Heyy.

So, yesterday marked the last day remedial. Went to Science Center for biology. Went with the 3S3 and some of the 3S2 peeps. It was on Bacteria Transformation. We got to wear those cool professor-like coats and rubber gloves. I felt like i was a doctor, to a surgeon, to a dentist and to feeling like i was those CSI people. Haha. It was interesting. Got some time after the course to walk around and look at the stuffs they have in the shop. Goofed around a bit and then the bus came to bring us back to school.

On the bus, i was planning to finish up one last question of the bio homework which was to be handed up to Ms Wong by this week. But my homework totally got ruined. My mistake was keeping my umbrella into my bag while it was still a lil damp. How was i to know it was going to drench my homework and smeared all the ink, making it look just like one piece of paper with blue ink all over. GAHHH. Have to go back to school again this week just to hand up that assignment. Awesome, just awesome.

Can't wait to go to Malaysia in december. Gonna shop till i drop. WOOH. (: It's gonna be a fun trip, gonna have fun with my cousins. I hope it's gonna be fun. Havent seen them for months.

Currently missing people. Seriously, i miss them a lot. Sigh. Wonder if they still remember my existence. I wanna go out. But moolahs are always the problem. Oh, and my parents' approval. :/ I'm so bored at home. I feel myself rot day by day. Days of not doing anything useful. Damn, i need to start on those assignments soon. Library-buddy, anyone? Contact me through my phone, alrighty? (:

outings. outings. outings. outings. outings. outings. outings. outings. outings.

Till here,
Safwah.

2008-11-14T22:21:00.004+08:00

Baby and Me. /(Baby & I)
Staring Jang Geun-seok and Mason Mun.
Cutie and cutie jr. What more can a girl ask for? :P

Mason Mun.
I just want to hug this little cutie.
Probably the cutest baby in showbiz and the best baby actor everrr.
I swear when he grows up, he's gonna be so hot. :DDDD

Normally, i don't date younger guys, but i think i might make an exception. :P

WATCH. WATCH, WATCH!!!! (:

2008-11-13T13:21:00.006+08:00

I'm sorry that I love you.

Do Re Mi Fa So La Si Do.

Heyy.

Do Re Mi Fa So La Si Do. A korean movie. Seriously an awesome movie. A very heartwarming and sweet movie. If you're sensitive, you can seriously cry watching this movie. And just like Nadiah, i'd have to say, it's my favourite kmovie so far. I'd recommend you bored people to watch this, kay?(:
And yes, the guys are hot/cute. :D

Safwah.

2008-11-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

Tongue Tied lyrics

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

[Chorus]
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

[Chorus]

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

[Chorus]

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

2008-11-09T22:31:00.003+08:00

It wasn't always about you,

Taken on Nov 3rd;

Heyy.

Um, changed blogskin. Surprise, surprise.

Changes the song too. To Tongue Tied - Faber Drive. Totally in love with this song. :D
Omg, i've ran out of things to blog about.

How absolutely awesome.

When i have something to say, i'll blog again. :D

Safwah.

2008-11-08T14:48:00.004+08:00

Tagged by; Fatiha.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- Who doesn't, right?

2. What if you fall in front of the whole school?
- I'd die. Die of embarassment.

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
- Call me a geek, but yeah. Kinda.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- I'd do a lot of things with a billion dollars.

5. How far would you go for your bestfriend?
- Pretty far, actually.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Being loved by someone.

7. List out your 5 favourite songs: Currently;
1) Right here, right now.
2) Tongue tied.
3) How you love me now?
4) Can i have this dance?
5) Just wanna be with you.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Let go.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- I can't remember.. it's not that hard to make me happy, actually.

10. What makes you angry?
- A lot of things does.. haha.

11.How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Made my parents proud, having a stable career and probably have met that special someone.

12. Do you hate people that bullies your friends or loved ones?
- More than you'd imagine.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- I would probably say, patience.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Depends, actually.

15. What is your favourite colour?
- Green (:

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Depends.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- Probably the one who loves me more than the other.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- It depends, but most probably, yes.

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- *NIL.

20. 5 people I have tagged
1) Natasha
2) Sarah Huda
3) LNL
4) Hazeerah
5) Nadiah

;Nak buat, buat, tak nak sua. (:

2008-11-03T20:02:00.003+08:00

Inside jokes, never-ending secrets, late-night calls,

priceless memories and the bestfriend.

A.N.B.R, ilyyyyy.

Happy 15th Birthday, BFF♥

" We sign our cards and letters, BFF.

You've got a million ways to make me laugh.

You're looking out for me; you've got my back,

It's so good to have you around.

You know the secrets I could never tell,

And when I'm quiet you break through my shell.

Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell,

Cause you keep my feet on the ground."

" She was scared unprepared,

Lost in the dark,

Falling apart,

I can survive.

With you by my side,

We're gonna be alright.

This is what happens,

When two worlds collide."

Oh, she knows which songs these comes from. (:

Safwah.

2008-10-30T16:51:00.004+08:00

Quiz from Nadiah and Siti.

'Write 10 weird/habits/little known facts about yourself'

1. I get cold when i've eaten till i'm filled.

2. I pee a lot when i'm cold, scared, nervous or just drank a lot of water.

3. I get cranky when waiting.

4. I stare at people just to freak them out.

5. I like to study people's physical appearance,more of their heads.(e.g; eyes, hair, facial expressions, smiles, etc)

6. I laugh till i cry.

7. I forgive, pretty easily.

8. Treat me nice, and i'll love you.

9. Love me, and i'll love you more.

10. I'm bias towards those close to me more than just friends.

10 weird people that should do this quiz: Anyone.

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This emptiness feels so familiar.

Each goodbye, just the same old song.

Heyy.

I'm bored. I'm tired. I'm missing a lot of people.
I want to go out. I want moolahs!
I did this quiz for fun.

V; I'm here for you, isly. No matter what. (:

Safwah.

2008-10-28T19:35:00.002+08:00

And boy,

Now, you'll never know what we could've been.

Heyy.

So i changed blogskin again. Went for simplicity this time. Lalala.

Remedials are officially going on. The only thing i'll complain about it is that the canteen stalls isn't even open for our break times, except the drink stall, what're we supposed to eat?! And it's so boring. Sigh.

After remedials are over, which is in around 2 weeks time, i wonder what'll happen if i stop using the computer. Stop all the blogging and going online. I should do that, soon. Just to see who'll contact me through my handphone, or call my house phone for a chat. I wonder who'll wonder if i'm actually still up and about. Who'll actually miss me when i'm gone.

Anyway, i get to meet my friends during remedials, sure. But i still can't meet my adorkables. Fatiha, Een, Hasyima, Fina and Amalina. Imy, you sweetards. A lot.

Juniors, sigh, i feel old. Heck, just the thought of me being in sec 4 next year makes me feel old. But then again, i'll so own the school. Sec 4s are like, the seniors, besides sec 5s. How awesome. (:
Prommmmmmmmmmmmmm O.O

That's all folks.

Safwah.
P.S; Ainur Natasha. BFF, imy siakk. 4 Nov, make it, alright? <3

2008-10-26T12:12:00.002+08:00

Quiz passed from Fatiha.

1) The person who tagged: Fatiha.

2) Your relationship with him/her is: My adorable fourteen year old.

3) Your five impressions of him/her: Sweet, adorable, pretty naive, fun and cuteee.

4) The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you: Putting up with me.

5) The most memorable thing that he/she had said to you: The only thing i can remember her saying right now is, "Safwahhhhhhh."

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will: Um.. laugh. :P

7) If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: Laugh with me. Haha.

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will: I don't know.

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: Don't wanna think about it cause i don't want that to happen.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: Hug her.

11) Your overall impression of him/her is: A.D.O.R.A.B.L.E

12) How do you think people around you will feel about you? ; I don't know.

13) The characteristics you love of yourself are: I can make people laugh(???) LOL.

14) On the contrary, the characteristics you hate of yourself are: Let's not go there.

15) The most ideal person you want to be is: a person who'll love and be loved, and also make her parents proud by being successful in life.

16) For people who care for and like you, say something to them: I love you.

17) Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you?
1. Natasha
2. Nazry
3. Azira
4. Sarah Huda
5. Lina
6. Hazeerah
7. Nadzee
8. Nadiah
9. Siti
10. Fauzaan

18) Who is no.6 having a relationship with?; No one.

19) Is no. 9 a male or female?; Female.

20) If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?; Uhhh. No idea how they'll be together in the first place.

22) What is no.2 studying about?; Same things as me, except he's studying Lit and Amaths.

23) When is the last time you had a chat with no.3?; Few days ago. Or is it a week?

24) What kind of music band does no.8 like?; Random bands, i guess.

25) Does no.1 have any siblings; Nope.

26) Will you woo no.3?; Uh, if she was a guy, maybe.

27) How about no.7?; If she was a guy, maybe. LOL.

28) Is no.4 single?; Single-mingle.

29) What is the surname of no.5?; We(malays) don't have surnames.

30) What's the hobby for no.4?; Watch porn. LOL. NOO, i'm just kidding, i'm not sure. :P

31) Does no.5 and 9 get along well?; Yeah, pretty much.

32) Where is no.2 studying at?; Orchid Park Secondary School.

33) Say something casual about no.1; My best-est-er-est-testfriend in the whole universe.

34) Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?; Oh, sure, yeah. -.-

35) Where does no.9 live at?; Khatib.

36) What colour does no.3 like?; I'm not sure, actually. (Oh, no.)

37) Are no.5 and 1 best friends?; Nope, just friends.

38) Does no. 1 have any pets?; No.

39) Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?; Hehe. No, but she might be the cutest. (:

P.S; doing this for fun, the names i listed down, need not do this survey. :D

2008-10-23T23:00:00.006+08:00

& Everytime i thought i was done,

i'll start missing you again.

Heyy.

(Caution; Long Post)

Thursday marked the last day of school. Yeah, for normal people. Cause Sec 3s have remedials for almost everyday for the next 2 weeks. Honestly, i'm not complaining. The big O's are next year and it's a pretty frightening thought. I need all the help i need. Not that i have any plans for the long holiday anyway.

Well, this year has been worthwhile. Time passed on by, not really caring if i wanted it to slow down a lil. I drifted away from some friends, and i got a lot closer to other friends. Made a whole bunch of new friends too. I think the most memorable memory for me this year would have to be the sec 3 camp. This year has been great but if i could turn back time, there's a lot of things that i would change. And since that's practically impossible, i'll just have to move on with life. Although i didn't do well for my exams, i can do nothing about it now except to work harder next year.

Next year will be my last year in Orchid Park Secondary School. My friends and I are certainly not looking forward to next year. With the stress of O'levels coming and graduating/leaving our friends and teachers. I'm pretty sure emotions will run high. I don't think i'm speaking alone when i say that we're gonna miss the school some of us never even wanted to be in in the first place. This might be wayy too early to say, but i'm gonna miss a lot of things. The juniors, the teachers, the bus ride to school and from school to home, the canteen, heck, i'll miss the entire building itself. But right now, i just gotta work towards doing well for next year.

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So anyway, thursday night went to raye with Setempekers again. It was fun.

Yesterday was awesome. Just, awesome. Caught HSM3 with Nazry at AMK Hub. My aunt helped us to book it online. Which was a life-saver. Cause the line was super long and around 3 or 4 time slots for that show on that day itself was sold out. Freaky. Oh, did i mention that my aunt treated us to that movie? Woohoo! :D The movie was good. Not great, but good. The songs and dances were awesome. They really went all the way in terms of songs, dances and props for this movie. There wasn't a real solid storyline, but it was still good. Zac Efron was hot. Vanessa was too, but she still sings like a nyamuk kayy. ((:

Oh, by the way, i don't give a damn if you don't like hsm or Zac. So if you don't like them, you're totally allowed not to read that, unless you read it already then i really don't care. :D

Alrighto. Enough with the typing,

PICTURES TIME :D

Ticket.

Yours truly,

The Bestfriend.

Random.

ELYAS BIN HAFIEZ♥

Safwah.

2008-10-21T19:49:00.003+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday, :D

Heyy.

So, today is guybestie's 15th birthday. Went to school with him so i could give him his gift. Wrapped it up in newspaper, it was his idea, and put it in the normal small red plastic bag, cause i didn't want him to guess what it was before he even opened it. Hope he liked it.

School was alright. Nothing much happened.

After school, went home changed, ate and went out again. Michelle, Zhi Qing and I were on a mission, Arroe was too, but he just accompanied us around. Won't elaborate more on that, cause it's really troublesome to recall what happened. All i can say is, we did our best and mission accomplished. Well, sort of anyway.

I don't think i've said this before but, to 290708♥. Last long, you lovebirds(:

Overall comment on today is, hmm, sort of tiring, yet sort of worth it. (:

Safwah.
Why are we denying the fact that we did that? Cause we didn't do it. Okay?
We wouldn't do anything to hurt anyone. At all. We just wouldn't do such a thing. It's up to you to believe it. But although our conscience is clear, we just want to avoid further misunderstandings.

2008-10-20T16:56:00.002+08:00

You're making it harder for me to let go.

Heyy.

Let's talk about today. :D

So, sec 3s had financial literacy today. It was alright. My group was the most quiet of all, but we did have moments of.. squeling and frustrated groans but we were pretty calm. We played this board game which was like monopoly but somewhat harder. It was called Praxis-or-something. I was the banker. But hell, i kept getting the lowest amount at the end of the day. -.-

After that, we had about half an hour of free period, but Mrs Liu wanted to do some.. whats-that-called.. uh, i'm not sure. But we talked about results and stuff. Sad we wont have a complete class next year ): Then there was this thing about a book? Which we were accused of not returning? How can it be our fault when the person didn't tell us earlier? Like we can remember who took what book in the beginning of the year. It's like asking us, do you remember what you did on the first day of school? Heck, i don't even remember getting that book. Plus, Ms Kwok would have SO chased us if we didn't hand it in. And now, it's end of the year, and they ask us about something that happened beginning of the year. Weird people. Okay, so i sound defensive but i find it a lil unreasonable and not really polite to tell us now. Come on, even if we didn't hand in the readers, the full set, couldn't they tell us earlier?

Anyway, i also got back class picture :D Kinda regret not buying the formal one, cause it's nice. Ahhhhh, forget it.

After school, went somewhere with Fatiha to get a birthday gift. But the thing i originally planned to get was either not that nice, wasn't there anymore or wayyyyy over my budget. So we went to another place. Ended up buying something which isn't so special, but something i thought i'd like. Haha. Why do i always do that? Buy something i'd like, but still so paranoid about whether the person'll like it or not. I hope he does.

Yes, it's a he. Who is the he? He is my guybestfriend, Muhd Syunnazry Sufriady. Whose 15th birthday will be tomorrow, which is the 21st October. I shall blog again tomorrow about this. (:

This paragraph will be for Fatiha. Thanks a lot for accompanying me today. :D I so love you for being patient with me. This is why i don't go shopping with people much, cause i'm fussy and picky about everything. Sorry for dragging you around although you're not feeling well. You awesome cutie, once again, thanks. <3

Speaking of not feeling well, i feel so effing sick right now. My throat hurts like *&^% and my whole body is aching. My throat looked all gross, it was really red and feels like it's swelling. I had a effing hard time eating just now, i swear i could cry. I feel feverish. Wait, mama claims i have a slight fever now. Ate 1 and a half panadol pill and now currently eating this strepsil thing, and you know sometimes the smell seems to come out of your nose? Yeah, well, this "smells" like baby oil. ))):

But I shall not fall sick, cause i have to be there to wish Nazry a happy birthday (:

I really need to lie down now. D:
Safwah.

2008-10-18T11:19:00.004+08:00

Kristine Mirelle - Let Go

Every time I found the words to say

What I thought would make things okay

I kept it all inside

Slowly drowning in my pride

I never could admit my own mistakes

Somehow I thought things would fall into place

And I made a change too late

[Chorus:]

Here, past all the lights

Where everything's clear

Nothing seems to change

How I love you and now

You're gonna leave

I'm just slowly dying here inside

Trying to let go

Maybe I just thought I had you here

I thought that you would not go anywhere

I abused my position and I didn't care

And now that you no longer turn to me

And it seems that you got over me

I can hardly breathe

You no longer need me

I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me

And not how it'd be to watch you walk away

I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try

In hopes you might come back, you're where my heart's at

I have to find a way

[Chorus:]

And everytime I think of you

It's hard for me to think of what I can do

I used to have you here beside me

I just want you here beside me baby

How can the sun keep shinin'

When my whole body's cryin

I know I never told you why

I need you in my life

Ohohohooooo

[Chorus:]

Fatiha: (: Welcome.
BIMBO1!: Hello.
Hazeerah: Sarang hae, happy birthday.
amirah: Haha, cool! (:
nadhrah.: Heyy you.
nutty: imysomuch. Know?
NADIAH: PRESIDENT. Haha. (:
azurahKECOH: Wowwheeee. House bunny is nice. Haha.
farhan: Hello.
Syima: Haha, thanks.
cheeSHENGG: Yeah.

Heyy.

Honestly, i have nothing much to say. I'll just talk randomly. I changed blog song. Current mood, bored out of my mind. Nephew's rolling about the bed like a pig, messing up the bed. Me? Ignoring him. My cousin from malaysia came over to stay for a few days. Brought her kids along. The eldest is pretty much quiet. The second one is an attention-seeking freak, who's been hyper all day long. The baby is just oh-so-adorable. Got some videos of the baby learning how to crawl properly. Damn adorable.

Omg, the second one is getting on my nerves, yelling in my ears and all. I almost wish that he'd fall off the bed or something. Urgh. I know, thats mean, that's why i said, ALMOST wish. Haha. Lalala.

Um, i'm bored. Really. I can't think of anything else to say.
So, yeah.
Let's just end it here.

Safwah.
Random people keep annoying me these days. Pfft.

2008-10-12T11:12:00.008+08:00

When it comes to this book of us,

I think it's time now to turn the page.

DA MOVIE WAS AWESOME! (:
" I think my heart'll fall out of my head."

I love you girls. (Second pic is Nadiah's signature pose. HAHA)

SARAH and NADIAH. (:

Reeta(:

The setempekerst of all. (:

OHHH, look at our shoes! :D

Sarah, Siti.

Swirly thingy.

Yours truly, (:

LOOK AT THE BUS AD, haha. Malays will get it. (:

Heyy.

The outing with the girls was just spectacular. The movie was hilarious! It's double as funny if you sit beside Nadiah. :D So, we spent the whole day on 10 Oct together. It was just awesome, sad that Syafiqah and Lydia couldn't make it. Or the clique would've been complete.
Anyway, i love you all and go out more often kayy? :D

After i went out with them, got home, rested a while, then went out to raye till 11PM or 12AM
then we got back home. Abang Fadhil rented a car again, so it was easier going to raye this year. Was so tired when i got home. Slept like a baby.

Yesterday, was the last of mendaki. Officially. No more of seeing bff. No more Mr Shaz's lame jokes. No more NVSS trips. No more. Sigh. It's boring, but the people are nice plus it's the only way i getta see bff, ain't it? Oh well, we'll find another way.

After mendaki, was raye-ing again. This time, Abang Naufal, mama, nenek and me had to squeeze in the back seat. Wasn't that squeezy though. So it was alright. So, from 2plus pm to around 8pm, was raye-ing. Then, went to my paternal nenek's house for.. nothing, actually, visiting. Got home at around 9plus pm. I was so beat, that i changed, washed up and the moment i put my head on the pillow, i didn't have a problem falling asleep.

Today, there's nothing on, i think. But i feel like going out. but i wanna save money. Ahh, the dilemma. We'll just see, i guess.

Oh wow, that was a pretty long post, ain't it?
That's all then.
Safwah.

Replies:
Syima: Haha, hey.
Hazeerah: Hehe, yeahhh. Sarang hae.
isabelle: Ditto. Go out soon kayy? (:
NADIAH: I'm refering to everyone who doesnt like it. Terase ke pe. Haha.
Shafiq: Yeah.
SaRaHuDa :D: Yeah, she doesn't like it. I love you too. <3
nadzee: i love you too :D
Amalina: Yeah, you too. (:
nutty: Ahh, shut up you. Heh. I love you kayyy. (:
SAMANTHA: Haha, yeahh. :D
C.J: Hello to you too. :D
Anhar: Whatever Anhar.

2008-10-09T19:15:00.004+08:00

Do you catch a breath when i look at you?

Are you holding back, like the way i do?

Heyy.

I'm happy today. Why? Because exams are officially over!

Yeah, i say we DO partehh before the results is released. I think i did pretty badly. I'm scared. Sigh. Well, what's done is done. All we can do now, is pray and hope for the best. (:

So my plans with my bed, was disrupted by beloved bff. LOL, it's okay, i shall sleep like a baby till tomorrow morning. All the best for the last paper tomorrow, dweeb. My exams are over, HAH! :DDDD

Gonna go watch House Bunny with the Stamp Packers tomorrow. Haha. You don't know what that is? They collect stamps, pack them and send them to Africa for the people to paste on their walls. NOT. LOL, they're just the awesomest friends i've got. Cause they've yet to fail to make me laugh so hard till i can't breathe, have a bad tummy cramp and cry. (: But some won't be able to make it tomorrow, that'll suckkkkk. Sigh. Can't wait. ((: <3

Ahh. I need sleep. Only got 2hours plus worth of sleep yesterday. That isn't enough! Sleep.......
Anyway, i'm bored.

Movies to look out for ; twilight, the day the earth stood still, the coffin, oh baby! and hsm3! WOOH. Don't like hsm? Do you really think i care? No, i don't. (:

Kayy, that's all, for now. (:
P.S; i still miss some people. Sigh.

Safwah.

2008-10-08T19:14:00.003+08:00

How you fooled me with those eyes,

Fina; Hey. I miss you too.
Amalina; I miss you too.
Hazeerah; Na do, sarang hae. (:
wanshing; Thanks (:

Heyy.

So um, i have one more day to go. Artooo and physicooo. So it's already like, 7.14PM? And i havent started revision? And i have loads of art to do too. Dammit. Sigh. So, i dont think imma sleep today. Hope i can endure it. I love sleep. Sigh. I'm sleepy already, my bed has been calling me all day.

Wanted to start on art earlier, but someone just had to call. Talked on the phone with Ainur Natasha Bte Rosle for almost 3 hours? THANKS ALOT, DWEEB! But it's okay, mendaki's gonna end, and i'm so gonna miss you kayyy. So i don't really mind. And no, you can't do whatever it is you know i don't want you to do cause it's not time to do that thing you wanna do. Not just yet, anyway. ily. (:

The papers have been.. sigh. I don't know. Kinda manageable, yet, potential to kill. I just hope i can scrape through to sec 4. I pray to God i can at least get through to sec 4. Oh well. I did my best. Though i think i could've done 197264828918397324632483734532984563729402432398423748375239842x better.

So here's my plan for tonight.

Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Physics Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Art Physics Physics Physics Physics

Ohh, such fun. Tomorrow, after the papers, i have plans. Personal plans. Specially planned plans. Plans with my oh-so-comfy bed. Sigh..
*drools at the thought of it*

ANYWAY, I should probably go now.
Wonder if coffee helps you to keep awake.
Hmm. But it's so.. eww.

I miss my adorkable fourteen-year-olds.
I miss everyone else i didn't have time for recently.
I miss kindergaten and toys.
I miss my late grandpa.
I miss my more-than-sufficient sleep.
I miss... *coughs*

Okay, i really should go now. (:
Adios! ((:

Safwah.

2008-10-07T05:43:00.002+08:00

Dude, i don't think i can make this any more obvious.

Heyy.

It's now 5.49AM.

So um, i changed blogskin yesterday? Just had the urge to. Didn't take me long, i just love this skin, just something about it is so.. awesome. Haha.

Last night, couldn't stay awake to study. So i managed to study a lil before sleeping and waking up at 3Am in the morning just now. Basically, i know the main points for history and the facts. So i just hope i can understand the question given later, i so need to pass history to pull up my humanities results. I think i screwed up for my SS paper.

I don't like you, Hitler. >/

For biology, um, i'll have to do major last-minute mugging during the break. But i sort of know everything already, it's just a fact of whether i can recall the right facts or not. God, help me.

After today's papers, i so need to start mugging for bio paper 2 (most important!!), practice for math paper 2 (cause i think i screwed up paper 1 too) and actually start modification and layouts for art. Oh, and the damned artist reference. Might not be doing that, don't have the time to. There goes my marks ):

After today's papers, it'll be Math paper 2, Biology paper 2, Art and Physics left.
TWO MORE DAYS! Hold on, everyone. STAY STRONG! Study hard. And all the best for the rest of the papers (:

So, uh, it's almost 6AM, 5.57 AM to be exact, and i gotta shower and go to school. Sigh.
WISH ME LUCK!

Safwah.
"I can honestly say, you've been on my mind, since i woke up today."

2008-09-30T21:00:00.002+08:00

So baby, keep my heart beat, b-beat, beat, beating.

LINA: Call/text me anytime you feel like talking :D
Nazura: HAHA, the question is.. where have YOU been?
Syima: LOL. Alrighto, selamat hari raya and thanks for today. :D
-FADHLI-: You too! :D
Fatiha: It's okay,sweetie.
azurahKECOH: FLYING COOKIES! :D
nadz: Tak marah, geram. Hehe. (:
naddee.: Lalala. CAMWHORE! ((:
Fina: Love you too. :D
passerby: You know, i didn't notice that. HAHA. :D
you should so know who.(: : Sigh. My very own ahsatan. :D <3

Heyy!

Today, school ended early for muslim people. Wanted to go home with some people, but ended up with Rasyima accompanying me to take the bus home(: Thanks Rasyima! :D So anyway, got home, changed to go out.. but fell asleep on my bed when i lied down just for a while. My mum woke me up and we went out to do stuffs, PLUS cut my hair. :D I like my hair. LOL. The fringe's shorter than i wanted, but it's okay, i'll just pin it up till it's as long as i wanted it to be.

After that, got to my grandmama's house to break fast there since it's the last day of fasting month. Met cuzzie Naddee there. Played the computer, i got high, annoyed her. Screw your height, you freaking 12 year old. Tsk. ((:

ANYWAY, um, tomorrow's Hari Raya! :D

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Forgive me for my past mistakes, and i hope you'll forgive me for my future mistakes too. :D

Shall mug a little tomorrow, then spend the rest of the day with my cousins (:
I think i should help with the last minute spring cleaning now, plus my room is in a mess! O.O

I just felt like saying this before i go,
SARAHUDA! LINA! Stop staring at pantats and .... :x
"PEACE ON YOU!" <333

Safwah.
P.S; Hunnayes, i'm not angry about today. I'm just a tiny bit hurt-ed. That's all, it's no biggy.

2008-09-28T03:52:00.009+08:00

There you go with your mixed signals,

cheeSHENGG: Awesome :D
Fina: Adorable you. <3
Amalina: You too, ilyt.
EEEEEEN: Hey hotstuff. It IS always awesome, isn't it?
Shafiq: You too.
Ms Fauzia: Tengah bersabar lerr ni. I WANT THE PHOTOS, please. (:
nadiah: Just a bit more than a bit. Tapi takpe, aku kan baik (:
Hazeerah: Nado, sarang hae. <3>LINA: All the best to you too, <33
Nuttyshaa ♥: You know, i love you and all, but mendaki is sooooo boring. x)

Heyy.

So um, it's 3:59AM in the morning. I didn't sleep the whole night, in hope to get some revision done. So far not good. I'm just blogging cause mama's gonna be calling me for.. um, sahur, soon.

Anyway, oh God, seriously. I mean, i did do something, like do the maths paper 1 specimen paper in the ten-year series. That's something.. right? RIGHT??? I also re-wrote some of the bio notes that was in pencil to pen and wrote some on memo pads to stick them on the notes so it won't be messy, but wth. Aren't i supposed to like, mug like crazy and ram everything in my brain?

History is killing me. Just looking at the notes make me wanna puke. Literally. It makes me dizzy, no, i'm not exaggerating. It's so.. wordy. And i just cant digest them, for goodness sake, there's 3 parts to that damn thick-ass notes.

I need help.

I need to get through sec 3, alive. I just need to. I dont want to.. (God forbid)..~~retain~~. OMG, That's the one word that scares the living hell out of me. Seriously, and i'm sure i'm not the only one who fears that particular powerful..powerful word. And although i try to do something about it, it doesn't seem to be working! OMG. OMG. OMG.

*emergency siren goes off*
People, i'm officially on panic mode.
*runs around in circles, screaming*

....................
*breathes*

On a lighter note,
Happy 24th Birthday Big Bro. <3

Safwah.
P.P.S; ahsatan, don't worry much, alright? anyone breaks your heart, i'll break their neck. *evil laugh* Whaaaat? I can imagine, can't i? (: ily.

3 more days to raya. (:

2008-09-21T22:12:00.004+08:00

I can't get your smile out of my mind,

I think about your eyes all the time.

Amalina: Haha. You're more adorable kay.
nafisah: (((:
-FADHLI-: You too :D
isabelle: Whatever, i'm in no mood to do that lah. If you want it fast, do it yourself. (:
LINA: I so love you lah kan. (:
Fina: WOOH. Um, hi. LOL.
Gen Yamashina: Soon. (:
cheeSHENGG: I love it lah, because of Zac Efron. HAHA. SCREW YOU, HATERS. (:
Shafiq: LOL, whatever, nitro.

Heyy.

Went to Geylang today. Just going there, the mrt was full and packed with people. For some reason, there were a lot of foreigners. There was this old dude who stood beside me, and he smelt like.. B.O. *ewwwwww*

Anyway, I hate crowded places. I get restless, then i'll get cranky. Some people just shoves their way through, even when it's so obvious you'd have to wait a few pathetic seconds before you can walk through because thats just how packed the place was. They're adults too. Once, the lady was trying to shove me aside to walk first, when i was already there first and was about to walk when she just attempted squeezed her way in. I got so pissed off by her attempt to walk first, i just shoved her aside, like she shoved me and walked off. Don't worry, she wasn't old, around mid-twenties. Another time was this person who walked SO slowly, right smack middle of the walk-way, and the place was packed, i mean, COULD YOU PLEASE WALK FASTER? Or at least get out of the way. Sheesh. Unreasonable people.

So, advanced exam is coming. And i always start major solid mugging when advanced exam starts. ALWAYS. Which means that i won't update much. I'll be online, but will probably be busy. So if you need me, you know the drill. Call,text me. I'm hardly without my phone, so, yeah. (:

I'm scared. LOL. Sigh. I need help with my chemistry, anyone?
Till the day i update again. (:

Safwah.

2008-09-17T20:44:00.005+08:00

You are my thunder.

Your voice is the soundtrack of my summer.

MR yu: Um, who are you?
Hazeerah: Sarang hae. (:
Nuttyshaa ♥: Saw. Haha. :D
Een: Yeah, i miss the late night calls too. (:
nadz: Hi nadzee. :D
Bimbo1: BIMBO AJA!
Rasyima: Thanks, you too.
Shafiq: LOL, why you sound so sad?
Fina: Hey cutie. MORE HUGS! Ily. (:

Heyy.

Um, Fatiha asked me to update. So i'm updating. Had chem test today, think i did super badly. Sigh. Anyway, recently, nothing much happened, except that i've been sleeping, a lot. Sheesh. *smacks self* Good timing to sleep instead of study, Safwah.

Anywho, Fina, AmirahI, Een and Fatiha came over to my house today. They got high. Made me high. Fina seems bored half the time. HAHA. Laughed our asses off, then they went home. Adorable people. <3

Honestly, i have nothing much to blog about. Been seriously lethargic lately. Even when i sleep early the night before, due to my sleepiness, i'm still having a hard time keeping awake in class. I get those moments when i'm so sleepy, i could literally just curl up and sleep on that dusty classroom floor.

Wonder why i'm so tired lately... hmm. Anyway, i should go study biology now. For once, i'm not that sleepy yet. YAY ME! :D

Till someone asks me to update again.

Safwah.

Hey dweeb, imy. Mendaki ending soon huh? It sucks being in different schools. ):

2008-09-10T19:57:00.002+08:00

So i sorta, kinda, maybe like you,

a lot more than i had originally planned.

NADHRAH: Hey, yeah, i miss you too. (:
EEEEEEEN: WOOOH. :D
SaRaHuDa : Heyy (:
Praise: Hello you. :D
Ismady: Um, hi. :D
Fina: It's not. LOL.
Amalina: I look stupid. Haha. Ily.
Hazeerah: Yeah! Sarang hae. :D
J0LYN: Heh. Hello.
az: Azi, you rock. :D
Nuttyshaa ♥: Yay me. Um, shush. I love you :D
Fatiha: Ilyt.
Shafiq: Haha. Wanna be featured uh ? What have you done for me? x)
H: Ilyt. (:

Heyy.

Results gotten back.
Results suck.
Depressing.
I feel stupid.
Sorry, mama.
Gotta buck up.

Tomorrow's physics test. Gonna study later. 5 chapters. Sheesh.

I feel lethargic recently and my bed almost has an enchantment on it.
It lures me to lie on that oh-so comfortable mattress. It makes me snuggle up and fall asleep without any interference. I swear it's the most comfortable bed in the world. x)

Don't feel like blogging.
Gonna study.

Safwah.

2008-09-06T22:08:00.004+08:00

You and I both loved.

Heyy.

I'm, um, happy. LOL.

Today, spent time with Natasha, Wadiah and Hazeerah today, after mendaki. Went to the yishun library. Then, after an hour or so, Hazeerah left, followed by Wadiah, soon leaving me and Natasha in the library.

We got high. Laughed and joked and talked. It was awesome. Then just when we had the moment of silence, the librarian person came and asked us to lower our volume. JUST when we were quiet. Wth ? Weird people. HAHA. And Shaaa! I'm so not crushing uh. Okay.. maybe a bit.....ahhh, fine, a bit more than a bit. But so are you! So shush. Don't you dare deny it. Ily lahh. :D Ahhh-freak.
"Whatever shit lah kan?"

Came home, got bored, chatted till almost time to break fast. Helped mama make syrup drink. Ate to my fill when the time came. I hate it when ayah smokes at the dinner table, he may have finished eating, but hello, some people are still eating. Heck, I hate the fact that he hasn't dropped the habit of smoking more. Trust me, we've all tried to talk him out of it, but he'd get all defensive and stuff. Gah. Sigh. Anyway, I did the dishes tonight. Cause i was in a good mood.(: Blahblahblah. I did this, i did that, here i am, blogging at approximately 10.17PM (:

I can't wait for school to reopen. But then again, oh yes, i can. I'm not looking forward to the next few weeks. It's gonna be hectic, for everyone. Workload will mount up as high as Mt. Averest. And i will get cranky. So, you should probably try not to push the wrong buttons for the next few weeks. No, this is not a threat, it's a warning...... wait, that means almost the same thing right? Yeah, so it is a threat then. ((:

I changed my blog song :D I love this song.
I think Jason Mraz is a one cool dude who makes awesome music.
Till here then. (:

Safwah.

2008-09-02T05:31:00.003+08:00

My head still turns at every drop of your name.

H; LOL, and you tag me just to say that? Well, good enough, i suppose. (:

Mira; Alright (:

Amalina; I love you too! Happy fasting.

Ms Fauzia; Aww, cikgu, we'll miss you & you take care too, alright? You can come by OPSS anytime to visit :D

Rasyima; Thanks, you too (:

Arroe; You no understanding, me no care :D

cheeSHENGG; Haha! Yeah, it sort of was. (:

Hazeerah; HAHA. Sarang hae (:

Nuttyshaa ♥; Armpit! x) I love you too. :D

Shafiq; OMG, yeah! Oh crap. :/

pau; I know you know. (: I'll try to make it, alright? Can make it nearer instead of far east?

Fina; You're the cute one <3

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Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان, Ramaḍān) is a Muslim religious observance that takes place during the ninth month of the Islamic calendar, believed to be the month in which the Qur'an was revealed to Angel Gabriel which later was revealed to Prophet Muhammad.
It is the Islamic month of fasting, in which Muslims don't eat or drink anything from dawn until sunset. Fasting is meant to teach the person patience and humility. Ramadan is a time to fast for the sake of God, and to offer even more prayer than usual.
Also, asking forgiveness for the sins of the past, asking for guidance in the future, and asking for help with refraining from every day evils and try to purify oneself through self-restraint and good deeds is involved in Ramadan

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Heyy.

It's currently 5.52AM. Just now i ate. Haha. I don't want to sleep. There's class today. I might not wake up. Sigh. Sleepy. I'll just do my homework and stuffs till 9AM, then get ready for school.

Let's talk about Sunday, shall we?

Sunday, i went out with NAZRY! :D It's been around 3 weeks since we actually spent some time together? Because someone was busy, wasnt he? It's all good, i understand.

So we went to catch a movie, Journey to the center of the earth. What i like about the movie was it had Brendon Fraser in it. I love his movies, George of the jungle, the Mummy and all. Awesome actor. Anyway, the movie was good, thrilling and hilarious. Though, a little predictable at some parts, yet good. :D

Went to causeway's banquet to have dinner and went home. :D We got to talk, a lot, and joke, a lot, but laugh the most. :D I was feeling pretty mean, to other people. HAHA. Sorry, innocent strangers. I kept critisizing them, of course not in their faces. But still. Haha. :D

Thanks for the awesome day, bestie.

Yesterday marked the first day of fasting month. And i did nothing meaningful at home, unless you count sleeping. Which i didn't even have that much, and probably not much today either. Sigh. I just hope i won't be falling asleep during remedial later. :x

You know, i'd love to keep on blabbering till i'm satisfied, but i'm sleepy and can't think of anything random to blog about. Uh huh. Um, next time then. (:

Safwah.

2008-08-31T11:02:00.011+08:00

The unspoken gratitude and unforgettable memories.

CAUTION: LONG PICTURE-FILLED POSTS.

Cikgu, thanks for everything. We will miss you. <3

1st take, WRONG CAMERA!
2nd take, AZMAN!!! MADY!!! Spoil lah!

JPS, my favourite staircase. x) Seriously.

I miss the days when we actually had lockers.

Dinosaur stamp redemption booth. xD

Library.

Does this tell you enough on how much we,me in particular, miss primary school?

Dweeb A.N.B.R. (:
Friends for 10 years & counting. BFFs for 5 years & counting. <3

I miss those big books. It was so easy to read and had coloured pictures ):

Look at how tiny the tables and chairs are :D

Sembawang Beach.

Wadiah(in blue) , Ashikin(in white), Zahidah(in grey), Me(in red) :D

Bestfriends, Fauzaan and Ashikin.
I miss our inside jokes, silly memories, stupid little fights and most of all, i miss the both of you. Take good care till we meet again, alright? <3

It's been 3 years since primary school, and i never thought i'd miss it this much. The workload in primary school and secondary school is almost too ironic to be true.

3 years. How time flies huh? Now i'm in sec 3, so-called the 2nd most important year in secondary school. Next year, it'll be me taking my pre-lims, taking my O'levels. And it feels like only last week, i was sitting in primary school, taking my PSLE. It feels like only yesterday when i first stepped into Orchid Park, not knowing what's in store for me. Here i am, fifteen years old. I hope i've changed to someone better in the last 2 years plus. I feel that i've matured a lot, yet i still know how to have fun once in a while, okay, most of the time, but you get what i mean.

That's all. (: Tomorrow's the start of fasting month, Selamat Berpuasa to all my muslim friends. Happy fasting! (:

Safwah.

2008-08-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

Oh Goshdammit.
So much for the last post.

I'm having a hard time..I had a bad day..
It wasn't your fault..i somehow knew it wasn't..
I was just.... sigh.
I'm sorry.
What kind of person am i? Really?
You know what? Hate me if you wanna.
Hate me, scold me, yell at me.
I'd totally understand.
But I really am sorry.

2008-08-23T17:53:00.004+08:00

Take the hint, silly.
I like you.

Hazeerah; Haha, whatever lah you. (:
Dayaananana; Okayokay, i'll link you soon (:
LNL; Yeah, it's fun talking to you about.. stuffs. :D
dion; Thanks :D
Ms Fauzia; Wooh! Hi cikgu xD
Anhar; Sarcastic seh. x)
Amalina; You're too cute lah. Baby you. (:
Mira; Thanks :D

Heyy.

I'm bored, and tired. I have lots of art and overdue malay to do. Plus i have to revise for biology and something else that i just forgot. Just in no mood to do. Oh yeah, i just remembered, i have to read Fifty-fifty tutti-fruity chocolate chip ice cream and other stories, the english reader, and also Mr J's awesome vocabulary list. Sigh. Sec 3 is really stressful. Especially when you're a lazy ass like me. Gonna start revision soon. I think.

Went to mendaki this morning, got to meet BFF :D I still miss her though. (: Did a lil work then played games. It was boring at some parts and fun at others. :D

Tomorrow's sunday. I hate sundays, they're the day before mondays. It's almost as bad. I get cranky and all. I hate mondays. I normally get the monday blues, or i get abnormally high, depends on who i'm with in the morning and who i see. *winks* Hees.

I'm having mixed emotions right now. I'm upset over some things. I'm happy over others. I'm pissed off over another thing, but depressed at another thing. Oh God, i need a mood check. They say that we can choose to be happy. Honestly, i think it's possible, but sometimes when you're not okay, it'll just make you feel worser when you pretend everything's okay, right? Oh well.

I also officially declare that i'm broke for the rest of the month. (:

It's weird, but i had lots to blog about just now, i just can't remember anymore. So, let's just be random. And i'll type anything that pops in my head. :D

I love it when it rains. I love the natural chill in the atmosphere, the air just feels refreshingly clean, somehow. :D

My Mama always says that we should always treat people the way i want to be treated. But how come i still meet people who finds pleasure in ruining my day? So let me lay this out nicely for you, when you're mean, you get treated like crap. When you're too nice, you get treated like crap. When you're nice but have your limits, you're still treated like crap. So the moral of the story is, like Ayah would always remind me, however way you treat others, you're still gonna be treated like crap. It's how well you're gonna handle that crap that matters. But i still think it's safer to treat people the way you want to. (:

Like the quote Mr J said that day,
"Life isn't how about how many time you fall, it's about how fast you can get back up."

And i found this other quote i found on the internet,
"The hardest things to say are the words that matters the most."

I don't know about you, but i think the hardest words to say are, Help. Sorry. Thanks.
I'd say I Love You is difficult to say too, but heck, everyone's saying it like it's nothing special, anymore. But i don't deny in some cases, it's still sincere.

Think about it.
When you know you need help, really need it, can you ask someone to help, WOULD you ask someone for help or does your pride gets in the way?
When you know you're in the wrong, do you push your pride away, look them in the eyes and say, "Hey, you know what? You're right. I'm sorry."
When someone does something nice for you, things as simple as picking up your pen on the floor, things like opening the door for you, do you say tell them, "Thanks!"

Yeah, most of us forget that. Most of us forget to thank the people who did something nice for us. Most of us forget that life's too short to be stubborn and not admit our faults. Most of us would rather do/solve things ourselves than to ask for help. This world, the one that we're all living in, is filled with stubborn and selfish people. Yet there's always those times when people touch our hearts by doing things that's so sweet, we can't help but to be thankful, even if we say it or not. How we won't fail to feel touched when we hear profound lyrics in certain songs, how we'd smile when we see something as pure and innocent as a baby. It shows that behind every stubborn ego, is actually a person with feelings.

So i'm gonna say this to everyone i know, who'd actually read this.

I'm sorry if i've done you wrong, one way or another.
Thanks for every nice thing you've done that i haven't noticed, for being a friend.
I know i have my faults, so, help me to be someone better.

...............................
*awkward silence*
Eh hem.
ANYWAY, I want ice cream. :D

Blog again when i feel like it. (:

Safwah.
Can't you see how easy it is for you to make me smile?

2008-08-22T21:36:00.003+08:00

I've changed? What about you?
You never did really hear me out.
So, you know what? Forget it.
I didn't matter much to you last time, and probably never matter anything now.
So if this is how its gonna be, so be it.

2008-08-21T06:11:00.004+08:00

It's something more than just saying I Miss You.

Heyy.

It's 6plus in the morning and it's Thursday. So school starts later. Thought i'd do a post. Well, kinda, anyway.

NATASHAAAA. Bff, i effing miss you dweeb.

Anyway, if some of you read Nazry's blog, i actually share the same views as him. No, it's not just because he's my bestfriend.. but i'm going through the same thing. Might not be the same group of people, but i know how it feels. I didn't ask to be small or short. I was just born this way. So here we are, trying to accept that fact, and there you are, insulting us. Haven't you heard of picking someone your own size? Havent you heard to not tease/insult someone with something they're born with? You're just mean, aren't you? I'm mean too, but i know what to tease about and when to stop. Do you?

Hey, it's fine to tease once in a while. What's a few teases between friends right? I'm totally okay with that, but don't you guys know the limit? Everything has its limit. Just because i'm being nice, doesn't give you any right to say what you want all the time. Sneaking insults,sarcasm and teases in random sentences. When i say stop, you bloody well stop. Alright? Is it THAT fun to torment me? Oh, i so hate it when people do it when i'm high. I'm fucking happy for goodness sake. Does it bother you THAT much? Be happy with me. Not bring me down, you ass.

It's awesome, isn't it? Picking on someone's flaws. I bet you feel so much better huh? GET A LIFE. I know some of you don't actually mean what you say to me.. then i just ask of you one thing, think. Think before you speak, alright? It's so annoying. I don't want to get angry and do what i do when i'm pissed. Saying vulgarities in your face with sentences that hardly makes sense. So when i walk away, it's a signal.
It means, "You're mean, since you're not gonna stop it, watch me walk away."

Sorry doesn't work if you keep doing it. Everyday, i put up with this crap. People sneaking in sarcastic remarks in their sentences. I'm short. I'm not short-circuit. I'm not stupid, so do me a favour and stop it, okay? I really don't mind teasing. But some of them are really hurtful okay. I have feelings too.

If you have a thing against anyone, critisizing what they're born with won't make you any better.
Weird people.
Gosh. What's happening to the world?

Now i've got that off my chest, i feel better. (:
Gonna go shower soon. Sigh. I wish i can skip school today.

Safwah

People asked me, "Hey, what happened between you two?" And all i could do was smile and say, "Things are just not the same anymore." Yeah,i miss you. But I miss the person i made friends two years ago, not the stranger i see now. You don't seem to bother, so i don't want to either. And this is how 2 years worth of friendship ended. Just like that. Bye Bye.

2008-08-19T19:18:00.007+08:00

Your smile makes me live again.

Anhar; Hello you(:
az; Will do, ily. (:
Fatiha; Videos. Will relink.
Mira; Okay.
NAZRY; Thanks, bestie. Our friendship means the WORLD to me too.
Amalina; Aww, thank you. Ilytoo(:
nadz; Hees. Thanks.

Heyy.

First, I need to say this.
POPEYES ROCKS :D

Um. Yesterday was okay, i was high though. I can't remember
much..except free periods, so, yeah.

Today, had free period so 3 periods of English :D
Art was awesome. Sat with Syafiqah and Hazeerah, and multi-tasked. Doing out work and talking stuffs, joking, laughing, it was awesome. Who cares if we're making noise? Don't like it? Sorry, but you're free to move, close your ears, whatever, cause we're having fun and don't care. Not being sarcastic, but it's not like it's so hard to concentrate for art either (:

HAZEERAH FELL OFF HER CHAIR IN ART. SHE WAS TRYING TO SAVE HER ART FROM FLYING.
A classic example of what an artist would do to save her/his art. :D

After school, waited for Nazry to finish his meeting and hang out. Talked about stuffs and stuffs. It's been a while, hasn't it, bestie? :D

Here's the pictures/videos of Passion Arte(:

H; you did great. :D

You peeps were awesome.

WOOH! (:

Sorry for the bad quality and such. I was moving too much :/ Talk about amatuers. HAHA. (:

Hope you enjoyed it. :D
Safwah.

2008-08-16T19:10:00.004+08:00

Helpless when he smiles.

Syima; I suck.
Amalina; Haha. NUH UH. You're still cuter.
BIMBO 1; I screwed up. Haha. Thanks anyway.
Anhar; Thanks.
freda; Will do.
LNL; Yeah, it was nice. (:

Heyy.

14.8.08
I screwed up my oral (:

15.8.08
(Yesterday)
I was happy. Just really happy. It was a nice day. I haven't been that happy for quite some time. :D

Today.
Passion Arte.
I was still happy this morning. I got the t-shirt! :D But my mood didn't last long.

Went to Nee Soon South CC, helped a little, got worried about my performance a lil later. Isabelle was a little late in meeting me afterwards to go back to school for last-minute rehearsal. Blahblahblah, went back to the CC with our guitars and stuff. Waited a while, then it was performance time.

I totally screwed up. Practically faked-played half the time. I felt so bad afterwards. Awesome addition to my already not-so-good mood. Plus i was hungry, bored and tired. Did i mention i don't like crowded places? All those gets me cranky. Roar.

Video-ed some items, will post them soon. Then we had to stay. Practically stuck there till 6pm. Syafiqah, me, Hazeerah and Nadzirah were the only ones who stayed throughout to help them clear things up. Saw Emily and Marsa too. And i got so cranky. We weren't the only art students involved, yet we were the only ones who stayed back to help. What the hell.

Saw Syafiqah's mum, dad and sisters. Her baby sister was so adorable. Her big sister was damn pretty. Also saw Hazeerah's mum and sisters and also Kenn's dad. Got me sort of depressed cause my parents're working and couldn't come.. sigh.

Whatever, now i'm just exhausted.
Sorry to whomever who was affected by my crankiness.

Pictures/Videos will be up soon.

Safwah.

2008-08-13T19:20:00.009+08:00

And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

You make me love you

Fina; Hello. (:
Shafiq; LOL, whatever uh! (:
zhiqing; Will do. (:
Fatiha; Mr Pau? HAHA, i'll tell you in school alright? :D
mrpau; Yeah, i miss jiemin people too. ):
jiawen; Okay. (:
Ashhy; ASHHY! :D
siti; Will do. :D
LNL; HAHA. Such dilemma. :D
EEEEEEEN; Yeah, i don't like her, i just like her songs. And yeah, it was awesome. :D
Syima; Sigh. Will try.

Heyy.

Before i get "serious" , let me talk about my outing on monday with Een (:
So we went to AMK Hub so i could try the Fresh Mango Ice thingy she's been telling me about, it was awesome, by the way. Then we got sausage prata and this strawberry-mango yogurt drink? The prata was awesome too, so was the drink.. after you got over the gross-ness. :D

Walked around and she SO wanted to buy this shirt? She kept begging me to return her money, which i snatched from her, to save her money from being spent. She was whining all the way, which was annoying, so i gave in. SO HAPPENS THAT THE SHIRT DIDN'T HAVE HER SIZE :D

After the disappointment, for her, we wanted to go to the sembawang beach, but changed our minds , cause it seemed like it was gonna rain, and went to the khatib place instead. The one with the couple swan rides. We sat there, played the swing, i got dizzy, sat down and talked while eating chips we bought. After that, we went to Northpoint for ice cream. HAHA. McD's ice cream. Talked some more and then went to Popular to have a look around.

Spent hellalot of money on food x)

She's adorable, i tell you. (:

Accompanied her to wait for her bus and then i went home with my brother, whom i bumped into at the interchange. :D

The outing was awesome, thanks Een. <3

_____________________________________________________________________

Anyway, now, for "serious" stuffs.

For starters, i feel as if i've done a lot of people wrong. Reason? I don't know, there's a lot of reasons why i feel so. I just feel bad. So, i'm sorry to everyone who thinks i did them wrong, in any way at all, even if it's because i didn't lend you a pen. I'm sorry. Forgive me? :D

Secondly, i've been totally neglecting my studies, and finally, i got a wake up call. Mr J took over lifeskills today, totally gave us this pep talk about the ripple effect or whatever. It actually woke me up, to start getting back to actually care about my education and the money my parents are paying for my education.

Maybe he's reading this right now, so, thanks Mr J. You have no idea how you've got me back to reality. (:

V, i just read your blog, again. I'm touched. IMYT :D

Had Passion Arte rehearsal today. SUCKED. I mean, me. I feel so bad, me, being a senior and all, not playing as well as i should. Roar. Sigh. I'll try my best on saturday. All the best to other performing groups too, alright?

H, don't worry, you were awesome. :D

Natashaaaa, i am so sorry, okay? I forgot Passion Arte was on saturday, which means i can't make it for mendaki. Dammit, i can't meet you again. It's been, what, 3 weeks? OMG. I gitdammitcheesecakefullofholes miss you. See how much? I don't even care that it doesn't make any sense. ):

Malay oral is tomorrow. HAHAHHA. Let's see how bad i can perform for this. Wish me luck anyway. :D

Safwah.